heart on wings

{Thursday, January 28, 2010}

"And this I promise you: I will come back, transformed, as many times as you will throw me away." -Alexandrea Roman

I find myself quoting, quoting and quoting, finding the words in people that are apt to describe some things. Some feelings, some thoughts. And this is a realisation of what have become of me. A blank,


Borrowed words. And what have happened to you?

10:58 PM;

{Sunday, January 24, 2010}

From I Wrote This For You's The Last Stop Before The Last Stop-

"Some people say that love doesn't last forever.

But I've met other people. And while over the decades their bodies have forgotten the ideas of who they were, their heads remember their hearts.

Maybe they didn't love forever, just a lifetime.

But they still make liars of those people. You and I can make liars of them too."

7:10 PM;

(What, is my life revolved around others?)

Sorry, but I don't live for you, I refuse to live for you, but I feel so damn compelled/obliged/freakingly forced to. I don't know why, but being polite is like a default, sometimes, I wish to scream at myself and tell the other to !@#$ off. Go away, far far away, if you need only me, no, error, if you need only my *insert whatever shit here*.

Gosh, it's so hard to trust anyone/anything anymore. Questions and Hopes. Dashed and Forgettable. Oh, such an easy thing to forget, oh, only when I need 'you'. And I'm giving things up, because it's so tiring and I feel so sick. As sick as you can be.

[Heart of Gold isn't always gold]

12:21 AM;

{Friday, January 22, 2010}

First time that I took part in a caption contest, and somehow, the photo meant a lot to me.

The Last Train Home

Dunno how I should feel, after attempting to take part. Relieved/humiliated/a little of all things.

7:19 PM;

{Tuesday, January 19, 2010}

~*~*Wake me gently, My Sunshine
Just like a princess in the fairly tales, I will close my eyes and wait
When I open my eyes, please stay by my side, Love Shine
Just like a prince in the fairly tales, look and smile at me
Even if I do not know, in my eyes there’s only you
And even if I don’t know my heart is throbbing, the sound of my heart beats
I wanna love you, I wanna need you
Can you feel it, my feeling
Come to me, come a little bit closer and take my heart away
Everyday lovely day everyday I will whisper to you again
Sweeter than candy, I will give my love to you
Reading the magic spells, shalala
Your smile appeared like the warm sunshine,
My heart is throbbing again
Now say it to me:
I wanna love you I wanna need you
Can you feel it, my feeling
Come to me, come a little bit closer and take my heart away
Everyday lovely day everyday I will whisper to you again
Sweeter than candy, I will give my love to you
Wanna love you wanna need you,
I will hug you tight. lovely day please try to feel my heart
Together, forever
Lalalala, lalalala, everyday I will bring you happiness
Sweeter than candy I will give my love to you~*~*


Hee, I’m listening to this without fail everyday. Love the song’s vibe, makes me tingly happy.

7:24 PM;

{Monday, January 18, 2010}

Heart be kind and sign the release

As the trees their loss approve

Learn as leaves must learn to fall

Out of danger, out of love.


What belongs to frost and thaw

Sullen winter will not harm.

What belongs to wind and rain

Is out of danger from the storm.


Jealous passion, cruel need,

Betray the heart they feed upon.

But what belongs to earth and death,

Is out of danger from the sun.


I was cruel, I was wrong-

Hard to say and hard to know.

You do not belong to me.

You are out of danger now-


Out of danger from the wind,

Out of danger from the wave,

Out of danger from the heart

Falling, falling out of love.

-James Fenton


“Heart be kind and sign the release

As the trees their loss approve

Learn as leaves must learn to fall “

“Heart be kind and sign the release

“Heart be kind and sign the release

“Heart be kind and sign the release

“Heart be kind and sign the release


And the rest of the poem, forget about it.

11:22 PM;

{Sunday, January 17, 2010}

The surprise of a cradle, melts the heart into a slicky burning candle, with crazy unexplainable unstoppable smiles.

"Hold the baby for a while, I'll go get warm water." Eh? I don't know how to carry the baby? How? "Just like that, easy." Oh. Hmm. Wow. Baby cries (wails), stretches, and I'm lost for a zillion of a second. Oh, shush, shush. Attempts to sing, doremifasolatido, dotilasofamiredo, doe a deer, a female deer.. while tapping his bottom, cradling him just a little. And then, suddenly, baby's asleep, like a cute darling. The warmth of his head, the endearing-ness of his deep-sleep look. Wow, this is magic.

10:51 PM;

{Thursday, January 14, 2010}

And I'm really comforted to find this. The words of a person, can be so strong. I actually envy this guy, Iain Thomas, who can write like this. From "I Wrote This For You", these two posts really struck my heart. And I feel ashamed to own a blog after getting to know this blog.

The Hardest You Could Be- "And you will find no fear here, in unkind words or the hardness of others.

And you will find no sadness here, in the meanness of the world, in the anger that comes from those who feel small.

And you will find no hurt here, in a million insults or a single, softly spoken lie.

Because only a hard heart shatters.

Only a hard heart, breaks."

And another one which made me smile, The Clouds Move Slowly- "You close your eyes when you cry. That's ok. Just don't keep them closed too long. Things have become beautiful since you last looked. There's nothing more to cry about."

Thank you, for this.
Though I'm temporarily comforted, the words gave me a certainty, it's like an angel writing.

P.S. The Missing Exclamation Marks- "You're ok. Breathe. Just breathe. Open your eyes. Come back. It's ok. It's over now. You're ok. Wake up. Please wake up. Don't do this to me. Don't do this to me. Don't do this to me. I love you so fucking much. Come back."

       The Heart Rides On- "I love you. I love your eyes. I love your smell. I love your hair. I love your laugh. I love your skin. I love everything inside you. And I'll try to make all the parts that I find, happy.

Because you make me happy. So much."

12:07 AM;

{Friday, January 01, 2010}

There’s got to be the light.

I have to see the light, we have to.

12:10 AM;

be with myself


cappucino on a rainy day,
snuggles in the warmth of blankets,
hot food in the arms of hunger,
huge umbrella of a stranger,
embraces in the rain,
smiles amidst frowns,
triumphs and singing of the heart

in center


Raindrops like candlewax
Drowning in a
Solid sculpture, you Burning and cold.


Baking skills
Yoga/Electone lessons


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