-edit- Been suppressing thoughts for abit too long. Somehow, I'm taking comfort in this impasse, of this huge black leap before everything falls into light, because of the friendships; relationships with friends, formed. The thought of losing these precious knots of fate, what they are called are true friends, is scary. Sometimes, friendships are dear to your heart as dear as to your family. Learning from them, laughing, sharing, growing with you. This impasse, is scarier than the previous, the fears, growing more acute and real. Due to circumstances uncontrolled, of friendships fading away, into those of hi-bye situations or just a nod of hey-i-know-you, of friends migrating away, of personal touches lost with time, of friends...lost, to mishap or even death...ohpleasenottheword. These friends are not those friends just for whimsical company, or worse is when one is obliged to call another 'friend' just because you know them, but friends who are called, for they are worthy to be called friends.
Somehow, I don't want this [impasse] to end because no one really knows what lies ahead, whether which friend you would lose, with time......
Please let these angels stay with me, stay with me... They are precious to me, precious as precious can ever be. Now I know. [Read an article the other day and stumbled across something that said, even in your deathbed, you would have to face death alone. Pleasepleaseplease let not this be true.]
Cheesy lyrics from HighSchoolMuscial3's Can I Have This Dance somehow speaks to me of friendships more than relationships.
"Won't you promise me,
That you'll never forget...
It's like catching lightning
The chances of finding someone, like you
And with every step together,
We just keep on getting better...
Take my hand,
I'll take the lead,
And every turn, will be safe with me,
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall,
You know I'll catch you, through it all..."
Or am I confused, once again. But but, another song that crosses the line so I'm not really confused.
"Do you hear me, talking to you,
Across the water, across the deep blue ocean...
Boy I hear you, in my dreams,
Feel you whisper, across the sea,
Keep you with me, in my heart,
You make it easier when life gets hard...
Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday...
Move so pretty, you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round,
You hold me, right here right now"
Lucky, a song that sounds whimsical yet affirmative and comforting.
Last paper to go, Lit paper 5, a good reason to emo, saddened by the tragedy of king lear, dwelling into the tragedy, and later suicidal plath...[lit paper 5 just like paper 2 of anyother, disguised to make lit kids look more studious? -_-]
Don't stop, don't stop.
Driving, driving off the fear.
p.s. lamequiz 1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, mp3 player, etc. on shuffle. 2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. 3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS. 4. Tag 15 friends 5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing. 6. Have Fun!
IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY? Can't Help Falling In Love [makes me so lovesick -_-]
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? Right Now [righthererightnow isit??]
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? Somebody Like You [yeahyeah,who'sthepersonthen-_-]
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? Like That [likewhat!!]
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO? Calendar Girl [nonono!!! lol]
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? What Are You Waiting For? [i'mwaitingfortheskytofall -_-]
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS? Outrageous [sssh, lol]
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN? First [first what...-_-]
WHAT IS 2+2? Kiss Me [ahaha cheesy]
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND? Teardrops On My Guitar [emo? everyone'semosometimesanyway lol]
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Right Now [again?? righthererightnow]
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? When I Found You [foundwho? -_-]
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? Xiang Ni (Thinking of You) [haha hopeit'sthesamepersonever -_-]
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Maybe I'm Right [andmaybei'mwrong...ggrr]
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? I've Just Begun (Having My Fun) [yeahright!]
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING? No Way out [noway!!!]
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? I Wanna Love U 4ever [yeahmaybe]
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST? Cool [coolshits??]
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS? I'm Loving It [=)]
WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN? ...Baby One More Time [-___-]
HOW WILL YOU DIE? Cool(Photex Remix) [okwhat'sthecoolwaytodiethen]
WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET? My Prerogative [areyousure]
WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH? Against All Odds [sadistic]
WHAT MAKES YOU CRY? Feels So Good [weirdo]
WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED? Everyday [nothankyouno]
WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST? Crash [yep,phobiaofincomingcars]
DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU? Lucky [she'ssolucky,butshecrycrycryinthelonely...]
IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE? Something I Never Had [kindofmakessense]
Gotcha!~ Ting, Ke Hua, Edwin, Xin Yi, Annette, Syu, Nicholas, En Yi, Jie Ming, Yi Chen, Amelin, Nicole, Cheryl, Han Xian, Ting's mei. =)
be with myself
cappucino on a rainy day,
snuggles in the warmth of blankets,
hot food in the arms of hunger,
huge umbrella of a stranger,
embraces in the rain,
smiles amidst frowns,
triumphs and singing of the heart
Raindrops like candlewax
Drowning in a
Solid sculpture, you Burning and cold.