Shouldn't have gone to school for Open House today. Overall, it's pointless. Fucking made a wrong choice to not stay at home.
It's funny how I can't feel attached to the school and my class for that matter and how because of it, I dislike the school and my class. Almost to the brink of the abyss. What's wrong, they didn't even do anything wrong.
I really, sincerly, can't wait for graduation day to come. I fucking wish to leave school right now. I know I can't, so I'll stay cynical instead of forcing self so fucking much to smile and believe that everyone can and will eventually be trustworthy.
I begin to question trustworthiness. Have come to realise that it's fucking silly to trust people partly and end up getting hurt. It's more silly to trust someone wholeheartedly and end up getting hurt. I don't know the real meaning of trust anymore. Will there ever be someone whom you can depend on always, and always be there for you? I guess there never will be, because the only person you can trust with your life is your family.
I can't bring myself to trust anyone right now. They aren't trustworthy. They can't be.I'm withdrawing, withdrawing my heart, resisting resisting the tears from falling.