♥ heart on wings

It's rather confusing/disturbing. You want to sleep, but no matter how you try to breathe deeply and toss here and there in your bed, you can't. And for some reason, breathing is difficult. And then, your head spins while your eyes are set so deeply in your head, you feel like in outer space...

That was the night before Chinese A Levels. I wasn't even nervous or anything about it. Freaking weird. It was the scariest night, I even felt like giving up totally. Reminded me of the night before Bio O Level practical too, but this, was the scariest night.

Maybe I think too much, and I don't even know.

Anyways, the dark day was over. That's all it matters.

Earlier on in the morning, was the worst day ever in school. Felt faint, the perfect mode for exam. And cranky and frowning...sorry people for the pissed attitude, especially Roz.

10:34 PM;

Dwelling

Dwelling


Dwelling


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Did you exist


Or did you not?


Did you exist


Or did you not?


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Why the hell did you


Intrigue me so?


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I should be studying chinese now you know


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Poof,


Make yourself appear...

10:22 PM;

Old school

9:09 PM;

Looks can be deceiving.


Homemade Chocolate Heaven with Kit-Kat

9:24 PM;

School syndrome is back again. Frustration, tiredness, weariness.

The evil hands of materialism. (Fuck, been waiting for my ipod nano since 3 months ago)

Save my soul.

7:56 PM;

P.S. The photo that really made my day. Why so irresistible, his lips. Man, why do I have a fetish for lips?! Lol.



Had 3 injections today, in preparation for the Thailand overseas trip. Sour they are but they are not as painful as I thought them to be and sure, braces (taking off 4 good teeth part) is so much more painful, so. I can't complain. Lol. Last time I had injections was when in primary school and it was so sour and painful I could still remember.

Okay so life is rather busy after promos, sadly so. Anyway, shall make do with Edward Cullen for a while...




Robert Pattinson (Cedric Diggory) would be Edward in the movie, gosh. That's what I thought him to be.

8:55 PM;

It's hard to remember how it felt before
Now I found the love of my life
Passes things, get more comfortable
Everything is going right
And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know we're cool

And we used to think it was impossible
Now you call me by my new last name
Memories seem like so long ago
Time always kills the pain
Remember Harbor Boulevard
The dreaming days where the mess was made
Look how all the kids have grown, oh
We have changed but we're still the same
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know we're cool

And I'll be happy for you
If you can be happy for me
Circles and triangles
And now we're hanging out with your new girlfriend
So far from where we've been
I know we're cool
You knew...

crap why do I miss you? so silly.

11:39 PM;

Oh woah it's been a week since I've updated and hello, promos are over...but wait, school is not over, and maybe that is why.

Past week is kinda blah. Should have played truant once again. In school doing nothing but wait and wait for the promos results and nothing for the first three days. Oh crap.

Oh yeah so now...
I'm promoted! With a BCEDEB (math, econ, lit, g.p., history, chinese)

I dunno how to say...eh happy but happy just for being promoted. Fullstop. Though I got like decent grades for Math and Econs and previously it was just junk ungraded. =) Happy. But happy for only a while that kind. Haha. Weird I know.

Okay so the past week is gone with a flash and I've been doing little enjoyable things but hey, I went out with Shafie to jalan jalan and talk and with Rozzie to watch Eagle Eye and jalan jalan and today, went out with Alwina and Puay Puay to cycle at East Coast and then jalan jalan at Parkway.

Today left me super shagged and I felt like fainting. Should be due to the merciless sun. Must put sunblock everyday now, shudder. My won't-get-burnt-skin got burnt today. But I'm happy and feeling thankful today except that I don't look thankful to my parents...oh well curse self for being a brat. And I chatted a lot with Alwina and Puay Suan today, so happy. Missed them so.

Oh well, school...when will it end? Just one more year. Embracing the A Levels? As for A Level? Ahaha.

9:59 PM;

We're going down
You can see it too
This is the deep and dying breath of
Can't seem to hold you like I want to
Nobody's gonna come and save you
You were the one I tried to draw
How dare you say it's nothing to me
You're the only light I ever saw
Leaving me feeling dirty coz' you can't understand
We're going down



I miss you sunshine.

10:56 PM;

Happy things are here! Cast away all the unhappy things aside and here goes...my fourth uncle's wedding! Like finally. Wahaha he still dared to say he won't marry last time when I was like nine. It's been so long since I've attended a family wedding. The last time was when I was five. Which is like more than a decade ago!!!

7:34 PM;

be with myself

Affirmation

cappucino on a rainy day,
snuggles in the warmth of blankets,
hot food in the arms of hunger,
huge umbrella of a stranger,
embraces in the rain,
smiles amidst frowns,
sincerity..
triumphs and singing of the heart

clarity

Raindrops like candlewax
Drowning in a
Solid sculpture, you Burning and cold.

peace

Independence
Health
Baking skills
Yoga/Electone lessons
Love
Faith
Happiness

serenity.

*HUGS* TOTAL! *HUGGIES* snuggles & cuddles

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Cousin ♥
amelin =)
fiona =)
ke*hua =)
edwin =)
sim*yee =)
yi*chen =)
anna =)
♥ trains

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