Happened to look through the archives of the beginning of this year and thought, damn, so many things happened within a few months. Like a week that feels like a month that kind of feeling. And some words from acknowledged poems seem to speak out to me, still or maybe even stronger.I'm so afraid to show you me, Afraid of what you'll do- that You might laugh or say mean things.I'm afraid I might lose you. And if you still love me with all that you see, You are my friend, pure as gold.You've got to hold out your hand even when that's the last thing I seem to want. Only you can call me into aliveness. Each time you're kind and gentle and encouraging, each time you try to understand because you really care, my heart begins to grow wings, but wings! With your power to touch me into feeling you can breathe life into me.
Irregardless, I'm finally moving on. With renewed confidence, coolness yeah. Maybe because of life-saving, I've found strength in life...and maybe because I'm physically stronger now ha. Anyways, I'm feeling so summery because of life-saving. Summer fever for summer fashion lol.
I'm going to put you in this space at the back of my head, or rather, your shadowy existence...until maybe years later down the road, I meet you, the whole tangible you, again.