Just gotten my retainers. Ewww, I swear wearing retainers is worse than wearing braces. It's like two huge plastic things stuck to the back of your mouth so much so that it makes me nauseous, think sticking your finger into your throat that kinda feeling. I hate the feeling of vomitting. And talking is difficult and
the dentist wants me to wear it every single moment, unless I'm eating. Crap. How am I supposed to sleep and go to school with it??
That disgusting thing aside, I'm gonna take the Bronze Medallion test soon. If I pass, I can be a part-time lifeguard...the passing thing is another thing. I swim the slowest and my breathing style in the water is taking a toll on me. I can't do free-style well and backstroke well without choking. On top of it, due to life-saving, I've gained a lot of weight so much so that my Ah Ma tells me to stop putting on any more weight. That's like a totally new phenomenon; she usually tells me to eat more. Which means my body is really stockier than before; bigger thighs and arms. Great, tis a price to pay. It's ridiculous. Usually frequent swimming helps you to lose weight, not the perfect opposite. I get hungry more often and so I eat more. Great. And I guess it's also the muscle thing, no wonder I don't feel as lethargic during life-saving lessons now. Muscles. ...!!! I hate and I'm scared of muscles. I can't afford to gain anymore weight. But I'm kinda happy with my cca people; they're a bunch of laughter-worthy and jokey nice and friendly people and it's good to know how to do CPR and the life-saving techniques they teach.It's a frequent thing many people say, even my mom. "You join life-saving?? You can swim? You can be strong enough to save people in the water??"
It's mentally draining, when even your mom says that to you.
Sneak peek of my current hair. How to style it (to school for instance??)
Help me unravel the mystery