Finally, it's the start of the June holidays. Which means no seeing silly blue for a few weeks or so and no putting on a facade to protect self from insanity, sadness, vulnerability.
Yes, I hate going to school and I will pay any costs for time to go so fast that I get out of this freaking school and be at peace with self.
Why? Simply because I hate to put on a facade whenever I go to school because which sane human being likes to be mocked at, laughed at, scorned at, manipulated by?
Dangerous place that robs me of my identity and sanity.
Yes, and I won't be happy in school but I will be happy after finishing school.
I totally dislike, detest, abhore.
The blue school colour is sickening to me now.
Fuck you, I'm no pushover.
Fuck off, don't hurt me. I'm not your doll to be manipulated with.
I want to kill your mocking laughter and smile.