Have you ever felt hurt by yourself? By being true to others and yourself, you end up hurting yourself deep inside. The pain that only you yourself can wholly feel and let it overwhelm all your senses. By being true to others, you reveal to them your sincere and close-to-your-heart thoughts, feelings and emotions but in the end, you get hurt by your naivety, 'ignorance/innocence'...you get hurt by the fact that you have been the true, real, person-with-feelings-and-a-heart you.
Bitten by the pain and your own silly naivety, you start to question whether it was really right to be the true you, or if you were freaked out by the true you that hurts you so much, so much so that you wanna tear down the inner soul within yourself...Too tired to cry anymore. Don't wanna keep my hopes up everytime I feel down, uncertain, insecure, because such hopes mean so much to me. So true, so pure, so innocent...yet true. Whenever I keep my hopes up, they fall everytime, and it sort of kills me all the time.
May not be posting till I feel better or ready. Sorry people for this post.Till then.