Writings on a frivolous- to pen it down, a world unparalleled;

♥ heart on wings

{Friday, March 28, 2008}

The first week of Life-saving/Swimming. Was not used to wearing swimming costume in front of the guy seniors especially...so uncomfortable. And not used to swimming without being able to touch the floor of the pool and took quite some time to jump into the deep pool. The consoling side is that the instructor is nice and I hope he can make me pass the Bronze Medallion so that I can become a certified lifeguard. Sheesh.

The physical training was tiring though. Did 800 push-ups together with all the members, ran and did crunches, squats, circuit training all in the early afternoon and I'm totally surprised I'm still alive and writing this. But I can totally feel the ache all over and to people, I looked like I was dying. Sheesh. Please bless me, someone or something... I need blessings to last for 1 and a half years.

And I totally need to remind myself that I must get used to being permanently tanned and an aching body...but please, broad broad shoulders and muscular body stay far far away from me.

I still miss Dunman, everything that makes up Dunman. Even more so when I went back for the Dunman Carnival and the Dunman Guitar/String/Band concert. Missing is painful.

Awkward looks and silences
A place just for its purpose to be in
Smiling facade
Underneath; the hidden picture
Of a crying face
Comfort is lost
As Time puts on a facade too
-It comes to a standstill
Day is no longer a day
There is actually no light;
I no longer see you and
Your smile.

6:18 PM;

{Saturday, March 22, 2008}

The world revolves around, yet the surroundings and all things inanimate will stay the same old way, just the way we remember and know them. But people will change, won't they? Their characters, goals and visions...

To the point of not being able to recognise them on the streets, or them being unable to remember me? I shudder to think of whatever may happen in the future and the thought of losing loved ones, not physically, is really nerve-wracking.

Yet I still hold on to the idea of keeping faith, of believing with your heart, under trying times and periods of uncertainty...

"You are everything that I've dreamed of."
-The Leap Years

Silly me wants to watch that movie again because it gives a glimmer of hope and is awe-inspiring too.

Cheesy as it may seem, but I want to know you inside-out for this lifetime.

9:12 PM;

{Tuesday, March 18, 2008}

Wow, first time to get P.E. leave for a week.

Been sick since Wednesday night (fever and sore throat) and the sickness was on and off. School's out for me for 2 days (imagine the amount of catching up to be done) due to sore throat, cough, blocked nose, red eye...=(

Feeling weak both physically and psychologically. Unsure of tomorrow.

It's too late and I have to get you out of my head(trying hard to) till then.

7:51 PM;

{Thursday, March 13, 2008}

"......I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)"

Studystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudy

Can't wait to ditch my demanding boyfriend. He's called A, A for the A Levels. Funny huh.

......

12:09 AM;

{Monday, March 10, 2008}

Alright, this music video lifted my spirits enough to write this post. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VBHtKMq17jU

Haven't elaborated much on official college life so I think I should do a quick elaboration...

Well the orientation was fun. The major fun part was due to the mass dances of course. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TV8lYXVujYg Lol, me a sucker for dances which require two people.

Post-orientation days are like dreary and serious. And, I haven't clicked well with my classmates yet. Which really sucks. I don't know them well, and they don't know me well. But they know one another well. Me, another sucker for being a slow adapter and a 'obssessed self-protector'.

That aside, comes the CCA part and academic part. I chose to be in Life-saving/Swimming. I wanted a change, and I chose that CCA. But insecurity comes after challenging yourself. And I can't catch up on Math and History.

Okay. My parents are in Taiwan now and my Ah Ma is living with me now. I love her.

Suddenly, pink doesn't appeal to me anymore. But scarlet does. Sadly, most of my things are in pink.

......

6:41 PM;

{Tuesday, March 04, 2008}

Fighting on a brave front.

9:10 PM;