heart on wings

{Monday, January 28, 2008}

These few days have been nerve-wracking, hazy and even bleak. But I guess I have a clear mind now so that I can submit the online thing to choose to go to the various junior colleges...

Hazy and even bleak because of the non-availability of the subject combinations that I really like, to the extent that I even thought of going to the poly. Hmm...with Victoria Junior out of my reach (2 points short), I can totally forget doing the Theatre Studies thing. Anyway, I'm shy so it's okay. Lol. So I thought of doing H2 Bio, Lit, Econs and H1 Math. But this subject combination ain't available anywhere..the closest is St. Andrew Junior...-_- So so now I'm thinking of doing H2 Lit, Math, Econ and H1 History...eww I don't like history but now it seems I have to make do with it...

Later on I'm gonna submit my online form (finally), with Temasek Junior as first choice, followed by Meridian Junior and Anderson Junior......

Okay I ditched the Humanities Scholarship thing because it's so troublesome and not really worth the trouble? Wanted to apply for it because I wanted to learn French lol...

Hmm...these days have left me totally confused and undecided on the future, but I'm really thankful that my mom has always stood by me, even helping me select the rest of the junior colleges that will be convenient for me. Thinking back on the preparing-for-the-O-level days, my parents have gave me a lot of their support...with my father fetching me dutifully to school every single day and at times when school ended really late, he waited for me patiently in his car and he ensured that I have fruits (namely apples which he sliced for me every day) so that I don't get sick...and my mom helping me to massage my strained neck and shoulders and now giving me advice on what to decide for the future...

Though I threw tantrums saying I don't wanna go anywhere since I grew frustrated by the day,
my mom played along with me and told me that my future is kinda bleak since I'm going for the arts stream (yeah yeah everyone is like "Why go arts stream when you're in the science stream?") and she asked me to go to the University and find a nice dude to marry and be done with life. -_-

I was thinking, why the hell should my future be bleak? I can either be a psychologist/journalist/writer/teacher/professor...or just like she said, find a partner in the University and be a bride. Lol...

Hmm...2 years in junior college...how will it be like? Will it pass by so fast that I forget the ever existence of the emptiness in my heart?

9:15 AM;

be with myself

Affirmation

cappucino on a rainy day,
snuggles in the warmth of blankets,
hot food in the arms of hunger,
huge umbrella of a stranger,
embraces in the rain,
smiles amidst frowns,
sincerity..
triumphs and singing of the heart

in center

clarity


Raindrops like candlewax
Drowning in a
Solid sculpture, you Burning and cold.

peace

Independence
Health
Baking skills
Yoga/Electone lessons
Love
Faith
Happiness

serenity.


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