♥ heart on wings
{Saturday, August 25, 2007}
Will You Wait For MeI need to talk with you again
Why did you go away
All our time together
Just feels like yesterday
I never thought I'd see
A single day without you
The things we take for granted
We can sometimes lose
And if I promise not to feel this pain
Will I see you again
Will I see you again...
Cause time will pass me by
Maybe I'll never learn to smile
But I know I'll make it through
If you wait for me
And all the tears I cry
No matter how I try
They'll never bring you home to me
Won't you wait for me in heaven
Do you remember how it was
When we never seemed to care
The days went by so quickly
Cos I thought you'd always be there
And it's hard to let you go
Though I know that I must try
I feel like I've been cheated
Cos we never said goodbye
And if I promise not to feel this pain
Will I see you again
Will I see you again...
Cause time will pass me by
Maybe I'll never learn to smile
But I'll know I'll make through
If you wait for me ( Won't you wait for me )
And all the tears I cry
No matter how I try
They'll never bring you home to me
Won't you wait for me
In heaven....
Cause I miss you so
And I need to know
Will you wait for me...
This shall be the final post.
The next post you see shall be after 13 November.
8:55 PM;
{Wednesday, August 22, 2007}
You may think it's silly, but.
My heart, it hurts, real bad.
Now.
The consequence of putting on a brave front, a happy and smiling facade.
The consequence of restraining the will to cry, to learn a new way of crying by channeling all tears into the mouth and swallowing all those tears, so that nobody will laugh at me, a crybaby.
"The grief that does not speak, whispers the o'erfraught heart and bids it break."
-Macbeth
Can someone, please, stab me?
I'm really tempted to stab myself, to get rid of that dull, slow painful pain in my heart, to make it go away.
6:29 PM;
"Be this the whetstone of your sword. Let grief convert to anger; blunt not the heart, enrage it."
-Macbeth
Very few words can describe the feeling in my heart now.
As usual, am not satisfied with my results.
And it's not like I didn't prepare or did last-minute preparation...
Am I really that unacademically-inclined???
Oh enough of this crappy naggy ranting.
"Let this be the whetstone of your sword. Blunt not the heart; enrage it."Written In The StarsStay with me
Don't fall asleep too soon
The angels can wait for a moment
Come real close
Forget the world outside
Tonight we're alone
It’s finally you and I
It wasn’t meant to feel like this
Not without you
Cause when I look at my life
How the pieces fall into place
It just wouldn’t rhyme
Without you
When I see how my path
Seemed to end up before your face
The state of my heart
The place where we are
Was written in the stars
Don’t be afraid
I´ll be right by your side
Through the laughter and pain
Together we’re about to fly
I wasn’t meant to love like this
Not without you
Cause when I look at my life
How the pieces fall into place
It just wouldn’t rhyme
Without you
When I see how my path
Seemed to end up before your face
The state of my heart
The place where we are
Was written in the stars
We made a few mistakes, yeah
Like sometimes we do
Been through lot of hard days
But I made it back to you
Cause when I look at my life
How the pieces fall into place
It just wouldn’t rhyme
Without you
And when I see how my path
Seemed to end up before your face
The state of my heart
The place where we are
Was written in the stars
Cause when I look at my life
How the pieces fall into place
It just wouldn’t rhyme
Without you
And when I see how my path
Seem to end up before your face
The state of my heart
The place where we are
Was written in the stars
The state of my heart
The place where we are
Was written in the stars...
The current blog song now. Really need some inner strength, from slow touching ballads to Chicken Soup...anything that can spur me on...
4:23 PM;
{Monday, August 20, 2007}
AIYA!!! I ACTUALLY THOUGHT TODAY IS THE LAST PRELIMINARY DAY!!
Until I remembered, still have Biology Paper 1 tomorrow.
Something must be seriously wrong with me, eh.
My mom laughed when I told her that. She says I must have been studying too much, until so blur. Haha.
Okay, tomorrow shall be the day! Gonna go out with my family for binge-eating at Pizza Hut I guess...my brother and I wanna try the cheese fondue thing! =))
And then after that, gonna go for exercise! Long time no see the gym already. =)))
And then...the day ends...and the next day shall be the getting-back-results-day...yawn.
No no, must think positive eh. =)
P.S. Luckily today's Literature is an okay...but my handwriting should be guessing work for the teachers again...well, for history and social studies too...lol.
1:45 PM;
{Friday, August 17, 2007}
THE PRELIMS IS GOING TO END SOON.
MONDAY'S THE FINAL PRELIMINARY DAY.
I've actually come this far... and the Prelims has actually made me have a whirlwind of thoughts...many many thoughts...
(Why am I actually blogging that often nowadays?...)
The most important thought that I have is I hate to spend all my time on books! Leaving little quality time for family members...it's been two weeks since I last seen my Ah Ma...and going home is like study study and study, no matter what, like after bathing and eating is still study study and study...!!! (I'm gonna wail and shriek if I don't do well for Prelims, because I've started revision like since May 29?? And hardcore mugging for the past month??)
Another important thought is that in a way, studying is actually taking a toll on my health. Seriously, like this year I have a lot of health problems. But a part is to be blamed for my dieting during the beginning of the year. But now headaches, neckache, stomachache; it's like all the aches are coming my way...(Sure, I have panda eyes now due to Prelims...)
Another important thought is that I get bored easily by the same boring routine everyday during the exam period especially. It's like a sad life...I guess I need to come up with Plan B to make my life more interesting...like introducing sports into my life besides studying? And I must constantly remind myself I'm only a human being, not a person designed to study for the whole day because I keep on forgetting this important thought...
Why am I typing like in obvious paragraphs? Oh man, I'm such a nerd. Haha. Hopefully, in a good way.
I went to the hairdressers' today, like finally after dunno how many months, with my mom. Oh and I did some retail therapy today. A little retail therapy; bought a pair of earrings and a necklace which coincidentally matches the latter perfectly. Haha. Okay, so my hair was previously so so long, the longest hair I ever had; it was past the mid-torso(or in layman's terms, chest), yeah and now it's just a little shorter. (wants to make oneself wiser by growing out my hair haha) And I no longer have the blunt fringe across my forehead now, instead it's a side bang. Haha. (haha? do you think it's funny? lol)
P.S. I'm rather worried about the Literature Unseen today; I did the poem, whereas majority, okay literally everybody did the prose. And the major shit is that I wrote so little for the whole thing, especially the second part of the question. Oh man, my faith for Literature...thy hope ends here! (hopefully not.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Never mind, still have the second paper for Literature!
This post should seriously end now. Bye? If there's any soul creeping around here...
5:57 PM;
{Wednesday, August 15, 2007}
I dreamed I was dying as I so often do...and when I awoke I was sure it was true...I ran to the window...threw my head to the sky and said whoever is up there...please don't let me die...
But I can't live forever, I can't always be...
One day i'll be sand on a beach by the sea...
Feeling rather forlorn right now...and listening to the current blog song makes me even more forlorn...
Still in the midst of prelims...
And my instinct was so damn right after all...need to re-sit for the Chinese O Level...got a B3 grade for it...
I knew...I just know....
deep down inside...
one day i'll be sand on the beach by the sea...
oh...the comfort of those waves...
3:06 PM;
{Tuesday, August 07, 2007}
Helllooooooo...if there's still anyone reading my poor lonely blog...
I guess the probability of loyal readers visiting my blog is close to nil, very close I guess. And it's all due to the mugging shit this year. Oops. Haha. The reason I'm finally updating is because I'm really taking a breather off the piles of books- in the midst of Prelims. Just a survivor of two Preliminary days...oh well.
I wanna run off to the beach and scream my soul out. And wave my hands in the air.Haha. This is what happens when a lot of studying is too much of a good thing.
And my father has just nicknamed me "Spaced-out Girl". He was like deliberately showing off his American knowledge since "spaced-out" is an American slang. Didn't know what it meant till I checked the phrase out in
http://www.dictionary.com. Lol.
I found an appropriate song on the website for my current blog song. Yes, I'm finally changing my blog song and updating for once since...haha.
Calendar Girl
If I am lost for a day
Try to find me
But if I don't come back then I won't look behind me
And all of the things that I thought were so easy
Just got harder and harder each day
December is darkest
In June there's the light
But this empty bedroom
Won't make anything right
While out on the landing
A friend I forgot to send home
Who waits up for me
All through the night
Calendar girl who's in love with the world
Stay alive
I dreamed I was dying as I so often do
And when I awoke I was sure it was true
I ran to the window
Threw my head to the sky
And said whoever is up there
Please don't let me die
But I can't live forever
I can't always be
One day i'll be sand on a beach by the sea
The pages keep turning
I mark off each day with a cross
And I'll laugh about all that we've lost
Calendar girl
Who is lost to the world
Stay alive!
Calendar girl who is lost to the world
Stay alive!
January, February, March, April, May
I'm alive
June, July, August, September, October
I'm Alive
November, December and all through the winter
I'm Alive!
I'm alive....
2:24 PM;
