♥ heart on wings

What a big record. I have not touched the computer like for two weeks, and I am so caught up in school and all that I don't even know it until today when I really feel like typing something just to let my dear readers know that I'm still alive. Lol, if I have any readers, that is. Okay okay, this is just a quickie update; I haven't got all the time in the world. =)

Time passes by like a breeze on a hot summer's day, too fast to enjoy, yeah. And what more, in school, in the last year, the most difficult year to endure, time passes by before you know it, yeah.

Just two weeks ago, I attended the Adam Khoo workshop for graduating students and the impact they had on us was g.r.e.a.t. I was already motivated and determined after reading the "I am Gifted, So Are You" book so you should imagine what impact the workshop had on me. Lol. I'm more optimistic about the future now, because I am a well and fully functional human being, so why can't I achieve what I want, when people less fortunate than me are able to realize their dreams. And I'm gonna use all the strategies they taught me, you know, I paid them $135 after all. =) Oh yeah, we smiled, laughed, pondered and cried together. I miss the three days of A.K. workshop. They taught us a heck of a life. And you know, the last day, I made a speech in the hall in front of everyone, teachers, parents and friends. Lol, I was quite surprised myself. You see, the trainers wanted us to give a personal speech to our parents and all, so I wanted to take the opportunity to say what I want to my mom (my father was not present) and got her tearing! The last day was a touching one.

Hero
There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you.

This song shall be another source of motivation for me to carry on in life and work towards my dreams...

I guess it would be a long time till I update again. Stay tuned. Lol.

6:54 PM;

I can't sleep; just now when coming back from grannie's, my family met with a tiny car accident. My hormone-charged-up brother was nagging and cursing away in the car because he wanted to continue playing my uncle's laptop at my grannie's. I dunno whether it's the birthday bug or something; it's as if he's the king or something. His nagging and cursing irritated especially my father, and he was also tired when driving, hence he bumped onto a lorry in front; luckily it was just a lil bump, and only the front car plate came off. But still, it's the first time such a thing happened and this freaked me out a bit, you know, I react a lot to situations...

I can't sleep, although it's midnight now...okay, I gotta remind myself of nice things that happened today instead...In the afternoon, I went for my A Maths tuition and guess what? It's a new teacher again and I seriously dunno why they change the teacher again. Amelin and I thought that it was a new female teacher but it was a male one. Okay, so whatcha think of the new male teacher? No, not a geek, not a hunk, but a... ... ...
pretty boy! Surprised, ain't it? So was I. Honestly, this is the first time I encountered such a nice-looking young teacher that suspiciously looks like a guy freshly out from NS. Lol, really, this is one pretty boy. Er, teacher, I mean. Was kinda awkward after looking at his pretty features; deep-set penetrating eyes, luscious lips, and the best of all, his sunshine smile, and I was thinking, "Huh? I will feel weird having such a gorgeous teaching me!" Lol, don't puke please. I'm stating the truth.

The lesson was weird, as I expected, because I cannot look at him for long when he's explaining and all. I will laugh because he will give me that gaze, and a hidden smile, and of course, I can't help laughing and smiling. Lol. I'm pathetic! Then of course, he asked me what I was laughing at, and I remembered laughing at the Chemistry teacher too, and I just kept laughing and shaking my head. Amelin laughed also during the lesson. Lol. Other than him being gorgeous, I still prefer the first teacher, the hunk I mean. Because he seems more experienced than this Nathaniel, whose name I thought sounded like a Singapore Idol guy. This new teacher seems inexperienced because he's not really good in explaining and all. But then again, the hunk, Jasper I mean, has this come-hither gaze which kinda freaks Amelin and I out, so maybe this new teacher isn't bad after all...we shall see...

I'm looking forward to A Maths tuition. Lol. It's weird going gaga over a teacher. Lol. And I guess the tensed up feeling in school is coming, as homework comes in and teachers inform us of tests and all. Okay, better wish me luck. I gotta reach my goal, yeah.

12:08 AM;

I guess this is the first post of a very brief post, if you know what I mean. Lol, because of school, the mugging year! There are a lotta changes this year; the school is undergoing renovation from June onwards, the resource room is our classroom so we have an air-conditioned classroom, new teachers, new seating arrangement...seems like the changes are for the better. But it's kinda cold these few days...lol, humans are always so hard to please. Currently, the first 2 days of school, we didn't receive any homework, just that we need to buy stuffs for some subjects. Lol, weird right? I'm happy to be sitting in the middle of the classroom and the Chairman is sitting beside me. Lol, I feel so honoured. Even though these few days I didn't get 8 hours of sleep; my mind was totally awake during school hours. Thankfully, lol. Yeah, I'm gonna strive. Hard. And today, during PE, we took our height and weight. I grew 1cm! But my weight increased by 1kg. I guess the electronic scale is too sensitive to mass, because my weighing scale tells me I'm 45kg. Blah. I'm gonna lose weight...

Oh yeah, and the younger students seem cute to me. They were doing their sec 1 orientation thing in school and the way they cheer makes me in awe of them for they are so freshly ignorant and free and definitely more youthful, yes...

I'm gonna keep walking though it may seem far...
I'm gonna strive.
For the physical, mental, and emotional sake.

7:32 PM;

Tomorrow is the big day. No, I'm not getting married tomorrow but instead, it's the first day of school tomorrow! The first day of the mugging year...and I guess this will be a big post since I will not be posting as frequently, not even, perhaps, due to the mugging year of course. So here comes the big post...

Yesterday
I played Sims 2 like a faithful gamer; I was drawn into the simmy world for about 3 hours. Lol. I lurve my Sims because I have spent a lot of time creating them into a big, happy family and continuing their lives for them. It's like I'm the God for them. Yeah, go try the game and you'll find yourself hooked to it real soon. =)

At night, we went to watch Eragon, yeah, because my brother wanted to watch it. It was a good fantasy movie with nice effects that would move you and some parts of the movie were a bit scary. Lol, maybe it's because I watched it at night. The dark...lol. Oh yeah, before the show started, my mom and I went to do a bit of shopping while my brother went to the arcade. It was a lil shopping spree, I guess...I bought 2 pairs of shoes. =)

Today
I went out with my mom today to OG at Chinatown. It was quite a big shopping spree, because my legs feel a bit tired; a rare occurrence when shopping. Lemme see...my mom and I went to the shoes corner, boy, a really big spread of shoes, after my father dropped us off. We spent the longest time there looking at shoes and trying on them. My mom complains that I take a freaking long time to buy shoes, which is quite true, because I will look and look and decide in my mind before reaching out for them to try on my feet. Lol. Not really true that I take a freaking long time because my mom literally scans the shoes on display. I bought only a pair of shoes after a few hours of looking and trying. Lol, even though there was a really big spread of shoes. That's why my mom will shake her head and go, "If I were you, I would have bought lots of shoes."

After we were done with the shoes corner, we moved on to the bags corner. And yeah, there were also a big spread of bags, but I took quite some time (but not as much time as the shoes) to choose the bags from the big spread of bags. I guess the reason why I take such a long time on buying shoes and bags is because they are not really suitable for me. You know, they are more suitable for adults. But somehow I managed to buy 2 bags after looking and walking around the big spread of bags. Lol. Lastly, we went to the lingerie section. Lol, I feel weird typing lingerie, like so not blogging material? Okay, so I shall not describe more about that. Lol.

Yeah that's all. The shopping spree. Oh yeah, we redeemed an oyster pearl, directly from the oyster itself. The person took it out from an oyster.

So tomorrow's the first day of the mugging year...with first day comes anxiety, excitement, and lots and lots of other feelings. Oh no, you're not a 7 year old going to school. Lol. I think I gotta change the main music in my blog to suit the mugging year.

The High Road
I gave you my heart
I gave you my soul
I gave everything that I had
But you left me in the cold

But still I have faith
Somehow I believe
That if I keep love in my heart
It will find its way to me

I could fight
Seek revenge
But that's not who I am
No I'm not giving in
I will rise above

I'm gonna keep walking
Though it may seem far
I'm gonna keep preaching
When life gets too hard
Not gonna let you bring me down
I'll take the high road
I'm gonna keep climbing
Till I see the top
I'm gonna keep trying
Though I may get lost
Not gonna let you bring me down
I'll take the high road

I'm gonna get by on the high road
Yes I will
I'm gonna get by on the high road

This pain that I feel
I will overcome
I know somewhere deep down inside
It's the pain that makes us strong
I could curse
I could shout
Take the easy way out
I forgive you somehow
I will rise above

I'm gonna keep walking
Though it may seem far
I'm gonna keep preaching
When life gets too hard
Not gonna let you bring me down
I'll take the high road
I'm gonna keep climbing
Till I see the top
I'm gonna keep trying
Though I may get lost
Not gonna let you bring me down
I'll take the high road

I get by
To be real
I can't keep it inside
I may fall sometimes but I will survive

I'm gonna keep reaching
I'm gonna keep climbing
I'm gonna keep trying

I'm gonna keep walking
Though it may seem far
I'm gonna keep preaching
When life gets too hard
Not gonna let you bring me down
I'll take the high road

I'm gonna get by on the high road...

Somehow this song makes me determined and brings out a strong feeling in me. Yes, I'm determined to get 9 points for O Levels. I'm determined to have a great school year even though it's the mugging year. Yeah, use the shopping spirit and bring it to school...oh, and I'll be enthusiastic when going to school, it's like shopping, ain't it? Lol. I'm sure 2007 will be a good year; I have a feeling. 2007 smells new. My brother will be wearing a new school uniform tomorrow, and I guess I have a new hairstyle tomorrow? Lol. Wish me luck for the new, great, mugging school year. =)))

8:38 PM;

be with myself

Affirmation

cappucino on a rainy day,
snuggles in the warmth of blankets,
hot food in the arms of hunger,
huge umbrella of a stranger,
embraces in the rain,
smiles amidst frowns,
sincerity..
triumphs and singing of the heart

clarity

Raindrops like candlewax
Drowning in a
Solid sculpture, you Burning and cold.

peace

Independence
Health
Baking skills
Yoga/Electone lessons
Love
Faith
Happiness

serenity.

*HUGS* TOTAL! *HUGGIES* snuggles & cuddles

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yi*chen =)
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