heart on wings

{Wednesday, October 25, 2006}

I woke up late for school, oh well, for my brother's timing only. Dunno why he always wants to go to school so early, oh yeah, I forgot, because his school starts earlier. Lol. So I freaked out and was ready in less than half an hour. School's become a bore, without teachers, without anything to do except to fold paper cranes. I looked forward to the end of school and I went to Pizza Hut with Cindy, Xiao Ting and Amelin. I felt so guilty after having lunch with them, and went home.

Surprisingly, when I reached home, I found something foreign sitting on the parquet flooring of my bedroom. A weighing machine! Wow, after months of nagging and asking my mom to buy me a weighing machine, she finally did! Yay, I can watch my weight now. So I felt motivated and off I went, to the gym. I ran and ran, for half an hour as usual, and burned 239 calories. Then suddenly, heavy downpour of rain and I was kinda trapped inside the gym. So it was a good excuse to walk on the treadmill for 5 mins and burned 21 calories. So in the end, 261 calories burned. What a great achievement! Way to go!!! Lol. It's the most number of calories burned ever and I hope that in the long run, I'll be able to burn 300 calories in a day. The more calories burned, the better. Yay, although I dunno exactly how much calories I should burn in a day.

When I went back home, I weighed myself and surprisingly, my weight went down by 2 kgs. Wow, 3 more kgs to lose in order to have my ideal weight of 42! Yay, way to go, princess.

Tomorrow's the last day of school, and I'm having mixed feelings. Suddenly, it's the last day of school tomorrow. Time is uncontrollable, to the extent that it passes way too fast. And next year is going to be a very crucial year, the last year of secondary school, moving on to junior college. Wow, and soon in a moment, I'm going to find myself being 18 years old and so on... this is overwhelming! Can't time be lazy and stop for a moment? Lol. This year's been a tough year, with lots of ups and downs. Many tears have been shed, many heartbreaking moments; yet there were also many joyous events and smiles and encouragement. I really thank all those friends who have been able to encourage me when I was down, and to cheer me up by doing all those silly but cute stunts and go through the tough journey of Secondary 3 together...I really do not know how I will be able to survive without all of you friends out there! Another thing to reflect on is, I seem to have been working non-stop since this year, struggling to get good grades and all. And everybody in class seems to be doing that too, and hence everybody doesn't talk to everybody. Sigh, I kinda miss lower secondary life, where silly guys brighten up my school days by being plain silly. Haha.

Oh well, many mixed feelings, that's all I can say. And I have submitted the form for Combined Sciences to the Principal; oh man, talking to her is like oh-my-goodness-this-is-freaking-me-and-I-wanna-get-out-of-here, and when I talked to her about how I wanna stay in the same class and not move out into another class because I fear I will not be able to adapt so fast to a new environment and so on, and then she kinda agreed (after thinking for a long while and debating with me) and said, "Hmm...up to you." Then suddenly, she bursts out laughing. Man, I swear I was shocked by her laughter, so weird and funny and unexpected. Haha, she's a rather nice Principal, because I guess she's okay to talk to. Lol. Okay, I'm gonna confirm that she really means what she said during the Meet-the-Parents-Session tomorrow because it seems as if she finds me rather funny and all and said it because she wants me to go out of her office? Lol.

Losing weight fills up the hole in my heart.

8:33 PM;

be with myself

Affirmation

cappucino on a rainy day,
snuggles in the warmth of blankets,
hot food in the arms of hunger,
huge umbrella of a stranger,
embraces in the rain,
smiles amidst frowns,
sincerity..
triumphs and singing of the heart

in center

clarity


Raindrops like candlewax
Drowning in a
Solid sculpture, you Burning and cold.

peace

Independence
Health
Baking skills
Yoga/Electone lessons
Love
Faith
Happiness

serenity.


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