heart on wings

{Friday, January 20, 2006}

Dear Diar2,

I seriously dunno whether I can patch things up with her again. I just called her after my crazy shopping spree, and I hope we can be friends again. How I long to see her smile plastered on her face, laughing and joking with me. How I long we can chat like nobody's business no matter where we are, on the street, at the shopping mall. How I long we can forever be friends.

My darling friends, I know you all have consoled me and everything when I was down into depression. I actually thought of slashing my wrists the day when I quarrelled with my mom and she ignored me. I actually thought you all didn't wanna be friends anymore. But I was wrong. I was thinking too pessimistic. I didn't remember that there's always a rainbow after a rain, and the sun will always rise up and brighten up the land overwhelmed with darkness. And I thought too much until I came to a conclusion that I will let Daniel swap classes with me. I know if I did that, I would regret for the rest of my life. I know I will forever be down into depression and need loads of counselling.

Enough of all this. I just hope everything will turn out right. I'm sorry if I made any of my darling friends upset. You know I'm like that, when I get angry, I blow up and walk out on you. But I simmer down fast. Still, the damage's already done. So I'm sorry.

Today I went shopping. It livened up my mood and made me feel alive once again. To think I hate my mom, actually I don't. I love her. Silently, so she doesn't know. She was like the personal assistant attending to the posh princess, carrying her shopping bags and fishing out her credit cards to pay for the shopping spree. If I tell you how many items I bought today, you won't be able to believe it. It's crazy.

But I'm lovin' it.

`x0x0``
muacks**

9:25 PM;

be with myself

Affirmation

cappucino on a rainy day,
snuggles in the warmth of blankets,
hot food in the arms of hunger,
huge umbrella of a stranger,
embraces in the rain,
smiles amidst frowns,
sincerity..
triumphs and singing of the heart

in center

clarity


Raindrops like candlewax
Drowning in a
Solid sculpture, you Burning and cold.

peace

Independence
Health
Baking skills
Yoga/Electone lessons
Love
Faith
Happiness

serenity.


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