heart on wings

{Monday, November 21, 2005}

Currently on hiatus.


A Heavenly Test (A terrible song written by me, oh well)

From the start
I knew there was something special about you
Then I felt
All the sparks flying around us
In the end
I found myself falling heads over heels with you
By then
Everything was a past

They called it a heavenly test
But it was a dreadful nightmare I won't forget
All the pain and heartbreak I had to tolerate
For you and me had to separate
It's so hard
I feel like I'm breaking apart
And I can't
Seem to take it much
Oh someone help me please
Free me from this anguish

"Oh, look on the bright side"
"You might have a chance to make it right"
But I knew, I just knew
It was all too late
Chances are so slim
That everything had to change

They called it a heavenly test
But it was a dreadful nightmare I won't forget
All the pain and heartbreak I had to tolerate
For you and me had to separate
It's so hard
I feel like I'm breaking apart
And I can't
Seem to take it much
Oh someone help me please
Free me from this anguish

Oh baby
Tell me it's not real
Tell me
I'll only miss you
In my dreams
Tell me
I will be able to see you
Through my heart
Just tell me...

They called it a heavenly test
But it was a dreadful nightmare I won't forget
All the pain and heartbreak I had to tolerate
For you and me had to separate
It's so hard
I feel like I'm breaking apart
And I can't
Seem to take it much
Oh someone help me please
Free me from this anguish...

11:15 AM;

{Saturday, November 19, 2005}

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never shoulda let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever be without your love
Never imagined I'd be sitting here beside myself
Cause I didn't know you
Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt
The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, cause baby
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together
I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Saying to me "If you think you're lonely now"
Wait a minute
This is too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
"I only think of you"
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things, crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
It ain't even half of what I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life, baby
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together


9:16 PM;

{Wednesday, November 16, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

Princess Cassie can't speak. So she shall let her blog do all the talking for today.
Princess Cassie is overjoyed.
Princess Cassie is exhilarated.
Princess Cassie is totally speechless.
Because she has just watched her favourite movie, sneak preview of Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.

Okay, this entry shall only be entitled to HARRY POTTER FANS. If you're none other than a HARRY POTTER HATER, please kindly buzz off. Plus, the entry shall be freaking long; time is precious and I don't wanna you to waste it.

Here goes. The 4th movie of Harry Potter. How shall I begin? I think I should begin by rating the movie. Hmm...

What about a 9.9/10? The 0.1% goes to the amount of cuttings they did to the movie, as compared to the storybook. Also, the ending. I hate the ending. Because Cedric Diggory died in it! And plus, the ending is so hurried that it didn't show the whole school celebrating because Harry won the tournament or whatever. The ending was just the trio talking about how school shall be very different after their summer holidays and blah blah blah. AND I thought the movie was going to show a kissing scene between Harry and Cho??

Alright, let's move on to the movie itself. The movie can be considered a comedy at the beginning, just before the dark things were about to happen and all. Because even the professors were cracking funny lines. I totally adore Fred and George. Aww, their cutesy hair and funny gestures and accents. Oh my god. Haha.
Fred and George: WICKED. (they're SO cute!)
And also the part where they mimicked Ron when Ron was forced to dance with Professor McGonagall because Professor McGonagall wanted to show everyone the correct way to dance with a partner for the Yule Ball. Heh. I totally lurved that scene. The way Ron's face cringed and the way McGonagall asked Ron to put his hand on her waist. Oh my Goodness! That was what Fred and George mimicked. HA.
Oh yeah, another scene of the hilarious twins. Ron asked them how to approach girls to be their partners for the Yule Ball, and so, Fred and George showed Ron how exactly to do it. Fred/George looked at a random girl at the Great Hall and gestured to her whether she want to be his partner for the Yule Ball by pretending to dance with an invisible person. The girl said yes, and so, Fred/George was contented. Ron wanted to do the Fred and George way of approaching but had failed when he asked Hermione. LMAO.

The Yule Ball
A traditional event to celebrate the visits of various magic schools. This was what McGonagall said. Ha. Too bad Cho paired up with Cedric, wow, Harry was so heartbroken, but he didn't show it. (Lol, Harry, why didn't you ask me instead??) Hermione was getting emotional, because of Ron.
Ron asked Hermione to be his partner for the Yule Ball, but Hermione refused. Ron was angry, so he sniggered about how Hermione ain't getting herself a partner for the Yule Ball, and Hermione was like,"I'M NOT GOING OUT WITH YOU BECAUSE SOMEONE HAS ALREADY ASKED ME, AND I SAID YES!!!" In the later part of the Yule Ball event, Hermione cried. Because she said that Ron had ruined her day by moaning and groaning about Hermione being with Viktor Krum and all. Ron was jealous. So Hermione ended Ron's jealousy by saying, "You could have asked me out earlier!" Something like that, and she went off, crying.

The 1st Task
All of you harry potter fans should know what I'm talking about, if you've read the book. The 1st task, was very dangerous. I even felt the heat from my seat in the cinema. You know, I was watching the movie and scared for Harry at the same time too. Because Harry had to face a meany meany dragon. Bleh. The most cringing part was the part when Harry was about to fall from the Hogwarts Castle, all thanks to that freaking dragon, when trying so hard to reach for the broomstick. But I sort of forgot that the dragon was stupid. Peabrain. It knocked itself and fell down; this gave Harry the opportunity to grab that golden egg. Yay.

The 2nd Task
Harry was hinted by the oh-so-hot-and-drop-dead-gorgeous Cedric Diggory to open the golden egg while taking a bath in the Prefects Bathroom. The Prefects Bathroom looked like a real luxury. So many different kinds of liquid soaps and shampoos leaking from all sorts of pipes, I knew Harry would smell heavenly. Hmm...I can almost smell it. Haha. So Harry went inside the bathtub. And he was half-naked. OMG! HE HAS A HOT BOD! SIX PACKS!!! So manly, but I don't see the need for every guy to be like that because it's just nice to look that, nothing more. Ha. Really, so guys, don't worry if you do not have a hot bod like Harry's. =D Lol, Moaning Myrtle was so sick. She kept on wanting to see the lower part of Harry! Oh gosh.
Thankfully for Neville's knowledge in Herbology, Harry was saved. Neville adviced Harry to use Gillyweed. So then, the house champions went down into the waters and were challenged by merpeople. Merpeople are not as pretty or gorgeous as what fairytale storybooks claim them to be. They are ugly. Such weird features. So the champions were challenged to save their friend underwater while being provoked by merpeople. Harry emerged last. But he saved two friends, because Fleur Delacour did not managed to pull through or something. So he and Cedric were the top winners.

The 3rd Task
The final task to see who has what it takes to be the real winner. This was the part they cut the most. They did not show the types of creatures inside the maze at all. Nil. Just the main part of the other 2 house representatives getting injured and Harry and Cedric fighting for the trophy. In the end, they both touched the trophy, and it was a portkey to the dark graveyard. Eww.
I hate this, because, just a few seconds after Cedric hit the ground, HE WAS MURDURED BY WORMTAIL WITH THE KILLING CURSE. WTFFFFFF!!!! Curse that freaking bloody hell asshole! WHY MUST YOU KILL AN INNOCENT GUY??? Okay, I'm totally exaggerating, but do forgive me. (Hey, I almost cried when I saw the lifeless Cedric on the floor) When Voldemort returned to his normal state, you know what he said of Cedric?
"Such a handsome guy, too bad he died." Something like that. Curse him.
Voldemort and Harry duelled. Their wands were connected together and then the dead came out to save Harry. Harry was transported back to Hogwarts when he touched the Portkey.
When Harry was transported back to Hogwarts, he was sobbing his eyes out or something. He was hugging the lifeless body of Cedric and was shaking it violently to make Cedric wake up. Of course he didn't. Cho was sobbing too, and almost everyone felt gloomy and all.
*1 min of silence, for Cedric Diggory*

Okay, I've sort of summarized the whole movie. Actually, when I was reading the storybook, all the scenes of the movie were almost similiar to what I had pictured in my mind while reading the storybook! So oh my god. I could have totally enjoyed the whole movie, except for a couple of spoilers.
#1: I almost missed one minute of the whole movie! Because, Mom refused to go out unless Papa helps her with the laundry and after she has drank her stupid coffee. Fking excuses. Luckily we were on the dot (the movie started when our butts hit the seats), or else I'm gonna buy another ticket for Harry Potter! Grumble grumble.

#2: Fking inconsiderate peeps in the cinema. One fattie momma sat next to me and she was so fking inconsiderate. She kept on fishing out her handphone and smsing and calling. You know, the cinema was pitch-black, and suddenly, a glaring fking white light shines on your eyeballs while you're watching your favourite movie. And the glaring white light doesn't flicker away. It continued to stand out in the pitch-black surroundings. I GLARED AT THE MOMMA. I GAVE HER THE DEADLY STARE. HELLO, I'M TRYING TO ENJOY MY MOVIE AND YOU GO THERE SHOWING OFF YOUR BLOODY HANDPHONE IN THE CINEMA? INCLUDING SMSING AND CALLING. CALLING! FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE. I was indeed blessed to step out of the cinema and not ending up blind.

#3: Fking bitchy chatty girls sitting behind me in the cinema. You know, the whole movie was going on and all, then very frequently you hear fking comments about the movie. And the voices sounded so freakingly bitchy that I feel like giving them a tight slap in the face. Hello, the royal princess is trying so hard to concentrate on the movie and you girls are sitting there, opening your fking mouths and laughing like the whole cinema is all yours. So uncivillised. Eww. Often, their comments are ever so fking bimboish. Like, "Look at ron's face! Gonna bash his face up!" and "Eww, scottish accent(cho)". Like everyone needs your fking bimboish comments. Like everyone needs to hear your bitchy voice. Hey, movies are meant for you to shut up and watch the movie and not for you to open your mouth and start commenting on the actors/actresses. I turned my head back at them coz' they distracted me, dunno how many times, then finally they fking shut their mouths up.

If only cinemas don't have that kinda people, I shall be an overjoyed princess today.

So now, I'm only a happy one. Bleh.

I am totally in love with Hermione's gown for the Yule Ball. Simply breathtaking and enchanting.
And also, she looked really like an angel at the Yule Ball event. Such a sizzling hot beauty! I'm in support of her being with Ron in the future movies of Harry Potter. Because I think they secretly like each other or something. Ha.

Ron is so cute. But also a green eyed monster. He and Harry sort of fell out with each other when Harry's name was announced in the Goblet of Fire. But of course, they didn't fight for long. And the way Ron was depressed and sad when Hermione danced with Viktor made me even more certain of them being together in the long run. Cheers!

Ha, and Harry. Needless to say, I like his hot bod! Lol!

Cho is pretty, and her accent is unique. I liked the scene when Harry and Cho met together and Harry nervously asked for her hand for the Yule Ball event. Too bad, she's already taken, Harry. =X

Cedric is HOT. I like his features, so dreamy and all...
Why must the good-lookings be the victim for almost all the movies?

Fleur is also pretty. In a different way. Like a warrior princess. And, she's a veela. Veelas have a charm that makes all guys attracted to them, for instance, Ron is one of Fleur's victims. LOL.

What can I say about Viktor? Macho? Ha.
Other than that, he's not really appealing to me. =P

Oh by the way, I forgot all about Draco Malfoy. OH NO!
Okay, here goes. Although Draco Malfoy did not act much in the movie, at least he appeared in it. Screw Mad-eye Moody for turning him into a ferret. Plus, I love his hair. And his accent. And his eyes. And his smirk. Too bad not many scenes of him and Harry quarrelling. Aww. But I still love every bittie of him.

Oh no, I love Harry, Ron and of course, Cedric too!

**kisses flood the whole computer screen**


10:30 PM;

{Monday, November 14, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

I have found another way to cure boredomness. Plus, this method can get you to lose weight too. Teehee. Okay, here goes...

Get your momma and you to switch roles for the time being. You doing the housework, and your momma, being the queen. =D

Beginner in household chores? Hi-five! =) Start easy on yourself, sweep the floor first.

Man, that was what I did today. Lost a kg! So satisfied with myself. Haha. Boy, sweeping the floor was not that easy as it seems! Plus it is gets more difficult when your house is a masionette. =X Mom said that my skill was so-so only, like DUH! I'm a beginner ya all know.

Hey dude/babe! Get your buttie off the computer chair and start sweeping! Heh. I completed mine in 15 mins, what about you? Lol...

Here's another interesting quiz I took! (Actually there are dozens of quizzes that I took, but I only post the more interesting ones. Heh.)

Your attractive to guys! As you are being yourself
and trying not to hard, guys actually dig you!

Are guys attracted to you?

Errrrr....then where's my prince charming??? LOL.

Your a nerd .... you study hard you get good grades
what else is there to say !!!

What school girl are you??? (with cool pics)

Holy hell...that was so darn true!

People see love in your eyes. You either love
everyone around you ooor...somebody's in
loooove, no? Seriously, though... You seem to
have a lot of love in your heart right now.
You're singing songs and picking flowers...or
at least you feel like doing so. And we can't
forget floating on air, right? Well, don't let
anyone ruin that for you, and if things don't
turn out...don't worry over it. There are worse
things, and you know it.

What can people see in your eyes?(great ANIME pics)((IMPROVED!!!))

Errrrrr....*blush blush*

gal by piano
u r a silent girlfriend.ur shy around the one u love. when u are around him
or thinking about him, u are probably
thinking,"he'll never love me." if u
relax alittle around him and talk 2 him more,
he will definetly see you as more than ur
apearance and ask u out. once he does, u'll be
restored to ur shy state of mind. don't stay
shy! now that u know he loves u, u need 2
loosen up and be urself. HAVE FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What kind of gilfriend would u be?(with awesome anime pics and 8 M-azing results!!!!)

Errrr...*blush blush for the 2nd time of the day*

u love him/her more than u can say its love!!!

are u in love?


You are the Sugar Fairy, the one who grants little
children's wishes! Little kids always whisper
your name and call you for help. You appear to
give them what they want. You are beautiful and
never seen in the eyes of those who are cruel
to others. You are invisible to those who are
terrible; they do not deserve to see your
beauty. You try to make the world a better
place and are kind and caring, and when someone
needs you, you don't mind helping them! You are
sweet and you are the kind of fairy that
eveyone knows to go to if they need help. It
doesn't hurt to help, so why not just do it,
right? Your friends love you and you probably
don't have even one enemy! You are always
trustful and betraying is the LAST thing you
would do! Be that way forever, and no one will
give you a hard time!
You are such a nice girl, so you'll probably rate 5
and message, right?

Deep inside you, there's a creature trying to get out... What is it??? (Beauitful anime pics)

O-0 makes me sound so goody-two-shoosy....0.O

He will be extremely cute, and is kind of solitary
and cold, but deep down in his heart, he loves
ya grl!

What Kind Of Boyfriend Will You Have? (Great Anime Pics!)

Lol...are quizzes true? =}


What should you be when you grow up?(girls only)

*exclaims in joy* WOW! That's what I wanna do in the future!!!! =DDD

Fairy- Your friends all think that you are human,
but you dissaper at odd times to see your fairy
family. You cannot let anyone know what you
are, because if they knew, you wold be put into
a zoo.

What is your secret identity? (anime pics-girls only)

LMAO. So I'm a fairy...pssst! *flutters off gracefully*

You are Popular and/or Girly too! You have bunch of
friends but only few of them are close. You
tend at time to be hard headed but you soon
clear off. You're an ordianry girl/guy but you
get a little more attention from guys/girls.
How do you like that? You can sometimes be shy
around someone you really don't know but even
when you know him just a bit, you're be talking
to him/her like he/she's your best friend! You
lovvveeee to Shop and hang out at your favorite
place wherever you feel best at or with your
friends too. You're a really outgoing person.
Color: Pink, red, purple.
Quote: Nobody is perfect. I am nobody! (lol)
Wellll I hope you liked this quiz. Message me
and tell me about it. You can rate too. Hehe
byebye *group hug!*

What Are You?? (many outcomes + pics and music!)

Watta funneh quiz...LOL!

Courier New
Your dress is girly and that's the way you like it.
You Go Girl!

Which wedding dress is best for you?


You aren't a kiss.  You have never been kissed and don't know if you will.  How tragic.
You aren't a kiss. You have never been kissed and
don't know if you will. How tragic.

What is your kiss? (Girls only)

Yeah right. How tragic. Even quizzes remind me. BAH.

As the moonlight shown on you to reflect the shine
in your dress you feel like an angel has come
to bless you and your love on this joyous of
days. For it is the day that will be remembered
for the rest of your life and you never could
be any happier.

What would you look like on your Wedding Day?

Lol...interesting, and unique. =))

You are a Shy lover! You tend to shy away from the
one you love, but that doesnt make your love
any less pure. In fact, shy love tends to be
more pure than many other kinds of love. If you
would just put some force into being noticed by
the one you adore, then you can get them
interested in you.

What Kind Of Love Do You Show?(With Pics)

Ain't that description a bit familiar??

Fairytale love
Fairytale love... is what you
dream of, and hopefully will find. You are a
true dreamer and a creative wonder. You're
sweet and shy, but don't take shit from anyone.
You are hoping to one day stumble over another
world and there meet the prince of your dreams.
I wish you the best of luck, and remember:
"No dream is ever too big, no dreamer ever
too small"...

Please rate aaaaand... eat chocolate bars?
*cough*rate*cough* ^^

What Love are you Fated for? ~AWESOME anime pics!~

Gosh...I'm starting to believe in quizzes...

6:28 PM;

{Saturday, November 12, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

I have sort of found a way to cure my current disease. That is, to do as many quizzes as possible! Ha, actually it has been one of my favourite pastimes but I have sort of forgotten all about it.
When I was much younger, about 3 years off, I used to take quizzes everyday. Coz' I had nothing better to do, anyway. =D Plus the quizzes are interesting and fun, in a sense. =D

You are a Perfect Girlfriend! Not too shy, but not
too forward! You are just the right amount! Any
guy would be lucky to find a girl like you to
wrap around their arm. Quote: To love and be loved is to feel the sun from
both sides. David Viscott

What Kind of GIRLFRIEND are YOU? (with pics)

Wow, this is so cool. =)) Heh, how I wish my prince charming do get to read this. =))

Well... You are single because you don't open your
eyes enough... Some boys look at you but you
don't remark them because you check the popular
one... [ OR ] the guys that you look for are
already in relationship... Don't think that
you're ugly and don't think that nobody want
you. You can act in a other way to be most

Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend?? (now with pics!)


innocent kiss
innocent kiss - you're cute and sweet and like it
that way

What Sign of Affection Are You?

Haha...that's SO innocent...

Quote: Standing in a crowded room but why do I
still feel alone
You hide lonlieness. You feel as if no one is there
even if someone is right there talking to you.
You think that they don't know or understand
the real you. People seem to shun you out and
ignore you because they don't notice you a lot
since you keep to yourself. People don't see
all you want is someone to notice you the real
you. Someone to stay by yourside and be with
you so that you are not alone. You feel as if
you will be alone forever. You wonder why
everyone ignores you. So you think that there
must be something wrong with you. And you begin
to hate yourself. You try and change but that
didn't do anything they still don't seem to
care or they notice you but you still can't
help but feel alone. Don't worry I know how
that feels. You have to wait for a day when you
find someone worth your love. Because the love
you've kept inside will prove its worth then.
One day you'll find someone. You just have to
be willing to wait and if you do your reward
will be great .

Interesting...sorry peeps, there's something wrong with the link so you can't take this cool quiz...=(

You are the frilliest powderpuff I've ever seen.You
are overly feminine and way to cutsie.Stop
dressing like your five.

What Is Your Ideal Dress? (Now With More Questions and Results!!!)

10:31 PM;

{Friday, November 11, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

I went to the hairdresser's shop today. Finally, I got off some weight from my head. =)

The hairdresser, as usual, was friendly to me. She asked me kindly how I wanted my hair to look like, and all. So I told her to trim it and layer it. Ha.

During the process of trimming and layering, she kept on telling me about how rebonding makes your hair look neater and straighter. She wanted me to go and rebond my hair on the next visit.
Immediately, my mind was clouded with questions. What exactly does rebonding do to your hair? Will it be successful? Will your hair become brittle and you will lose hair very often? Will your hair look like those shampoo advertisements? Or will it damage your hair and make it look like hay in a pig sty?

I hope somebody gives me an answer for all those questions posted above. Because even my mother did not object with the hairdresser, which was a miracle.

Ha, looking at the date, it's already Nov 11. How time flies.
FIVE more days to Harry Potter, the 4th movie!!!
Woohoo! I can hardly wait!

I don't get it. Why am I so freakingly free these holidays? Looking at other classmate's bloggies, they are ever so busy with their CCAs and stuffs. But why am I not? Speaking of which, I dunno why there are no practices for guitar ensemble, my CCA. Next year, we shall be participating in the SYF competition, and yet, they informed us that they have cancelled practices for saturday.
They are making it difficult for us. Because our instructor can only make it during weekends, as he has his own job and all.

Looking at the bright side, I'm quite happy actually. I should be grateful that I am freakingly free these holidays than being freakingly busy! Ha! Those people who have their dates booked full the whole of this holiday season should be jealous of me. HA.

I'm free! Whee!


7:23 PM;

{Thursday, November 10, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

Today went out with my dars, xq and amelin, and also VIP kiwi...
to pasir ris BEACH. (take note of the caps, you'll know why later)

Early in the afternoon, we met at the interchange and went to the supermarket to buy some sushi for our lunch. Tooty amelin ate lunch already, although I told her not to...BAH. After buying our fresh sushi, we headed off to pasir ris interchange for the BEACH. During all these time, Amelin was laughing all the way. SO kuku. Haha...made xq and I laugh like shit also. I might know the reason for her laughing for no apparent reason. Bottled up frustrations due to boredom at home. Ha.

We reached the beach. Went ALL the way to the rocky area just to wait for the VIP kiwi to come. He was SO decisive. One minute say not going, coz' very tired, wanna sleep, then next minute say not sure, must see whether wanna go or not. HMPH. (I think he didn't wish to go, coz' SOMEBODY was not there. =D) Even hot favourite celebrities are not like that. AND he threatened us that he did not wish to go to the beach just because I didn't reply his calls and SMSes.

**IMPORTANT: You guys MUST know something from me. I'm not one who answers my phone, even SMSes in public. Especially in NOISY places. I'm not trying to say I'm a VIP too, but I really cannot hear my phone ringing, or even vibrating. Maybe because my ears are freaking small. =)) **

I prepared TWO mats for my dars, I knew they would say one mat is not enough. Because you must give space for their bootylicious bottoms. XD So we sat on the mats at the rocky area to anticipate the arrival of the VIP, also at the same time consuming our lunch. He still didn't come. So we listened to music and sang. He still didn't come.

The climax: The sky turned gloomy. Thunder clapped for us, lightning lighted the whole sky. Gradually, the whole piece of clear blue sky turned colour. Then wind whooshed past our hairs. Gradually, the wind got stronger. At one point of time, it got so strong that we knew it was going to...

RAIN. And boy, it did.
The rain got heavier and heavier.
We were in a chaotic situation. We screamed and dashed for shelter after packing our stuffs.
Even the bus stop could not shelter us well.
WTF. Now, who do we have to blame?? Eh??
I really wanted to go to the beach and spend the whole day together with my dars. I really wanted to build sandcastles with my dars and soak in the salty sea. I really wanted to play water with my dars. I really wanted to pick seashells with my dars.
The thing I most wanted to do was...
I really wanted to watch the sunset with my dars. (you know, it's such a romantic thing to do. not just to share it with your beloved, but with your friends too)
SOB. ='(

No choice. Heaven was sadistic. He wanted to see our unhappy faces. BAH!!!
(Hello, Heaven, you should be grateful that a spoilt brat asked for the most minority of all things. Not that she's asking you a lot, she's only requesting for a bright and sunny day to spend at the beach!)
No choice, so we changed our plan. Went to century square.
Decided to brighten up our spirits by taking neoprints.
Boy, were the neoprints kuku.
But, overall it's okay.
Next time when we try on the machine, I'll bet we'll get picture-perfect neoprints. =DD

What a kuku day. Better than nothing, BETTER than staying at home. =P
I think I'm starting to heal from the recent disease. =)) Yeah.


8:08 PM;

{Wednesday, November 09, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

I'm sick. I think I have contracted an unknown disease.

The disease is a mixture of loneliness, depression and boredom. I don't think doctors can cure that for me.

I'm so sick to think that I would rather have those exam days back.

Holidays, as the word states, are meant to be fun. Holidays are meant for everyone to stay at home and relax and be waited on like a prince/princess. AND holidays are meant for everyone to go out with beloved friends and family members and have a great time together.

Sadly, holidays have a very different meaning for me. It means staring into the computer the whole day, either that or staring into the virtual TV screen. Rarely going out, once in a blue moon maybe. Being the 'famous' shopping spoilt bratty princess, I would DIE when I cannot go out. I would become a bit deranged, a little bit short-circuited, and a lot of bits nasty. I would flare up suddenly for no reason and point all fingers at the innocent you. It would be worse than PMS. At other times, it would be listening to sadistic music and searching for dark and heavy blogskins. Suicidal ones too.

So, I guess I would continue to be like that.

Until, a prince charming, disguised as a professional doctor, finds me and revives me back to my normal state.

As if that will ever happen.


10:13 PM;

{Sunday, November 06, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

Wow. I feel so much like a total spoilt brat today.

Once again, this is one of our trip for furniture hunting. And today is rather important to me. We're going to choose our own beds.

Well, the previous entry had mentioned before, I fell in love with a bed that is so eye-catching, what with the nice design and colour of the headboard, and the soft and springy mattress. Sigh, if only I could get my parents to buy that for me. Sadly, no. A big fat NO. 2K++, including the headboard. Eh???

But I really loved it. It was love at first sight. And I thought my mom promised to buy me that if she could get a discount. So I was furious when she refused to buy it for me even though she promised me earlier.

"No, I said that because I thought the price would not be as high as this."

What the... So when I heard that, I was seething with unexplainable anger. And I was starting to behave in a childish manner too. Just my typical old habit. The stupid saleswoman added to my anger. She kept on introducing another bed for me. But I kept on repeating that I was not interested in that piece. BUT she continued to talk like a TV advertisement. I felt like bashing up that freaking face of hers and shutting her mouth up. Can't you see I'm not at all interested? Because that bed is so not right for me? I can feel it, you know. From the moment my butt hit the mattress, I went like, EWWW. So not right. So you can't force me to buy it, you little saleswoman. Stop wasting your saliva.

My parents could not stand me too. So in the end, we went back to the Bed Shop at Orchard Road as I took a liking to one of the beds there too. Sadly, that bed was too expensive. Because of that headboard!!! If not for the headboard added on to the final price, I could have bought that bed. Instead, I bought another bed, and its texture was quite close to the bed which I fell in love with at first sight.

I have learnt something today. I have learnt that I am so freakingly fortunate than other children. However, fortunate children become such spoilt brats that they only want good and expensive stuff. My heart ached when I saw a little girl helping her mother out at a food stall. Hello, she is just like in Primary 3 or 4, and she is already helping her mother out at a food stall?? At her age, she should be concentrating on studies and play. Okay, so I admit I'm a freaking spoilt brat. Even the salespeople said that I have a very good life already. Still want to choose the quality of beds.

Oh well. I must learn to save money from now. And not spend, spend, spend like there's no tomorrow. =)


Oh yeah, these days I have not been going out with my dar friends.
That's why I'm starting to miss them all.
Boy, can't wait for thursday!

My sims life is getting more and more exciting.
And more challenging.
It's a legacy family, for your information. =)
So fun. =DD

10:54 PM;

{Thursday, November 03, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

For those people who kept on complimenting and envying me for having a rich and affluent family background, I beg to differ.

Today was just the first day of furniture hunting for my future house and whatever furniture that sent rays of attraction to me was freaking, i mean really, really, freaking expensive. I was so tempted by all the fine furniture that I set my eyes on that I kept on pointing all those fine furniture to my parents. My parents too, I could tell, were also interested in them. I thought they were going to buy those furniture by their looks of eagerness, SADLY and DEPRESSINGLY, the price tag was so not nice.

Okay, first on the list: TV console
Guess the price.


Yeah, the TV console was drop dead gorgeous because of its wonderful wood colour and it being perfect. It is big too and there are many compartments like drawers and shelves to put your decorative stuffs on. OMG, it was SO nice and it went SO well with our just-bought sofa I thought they were a match made in heaven. I THOUGHT my parents would buy it!!! I'm so depressed! It's like giving me heavenly furniture to see only, not to buy!!! Now, as always, my heart is ever so itchy. Someone give me a knife to ease the itchiness please.

Okay, next: lighting


OMG! My mom showed me a hanging lightning, made of swarvoski crystal-like snowflakes. So beautiful and romantic. Dimmer too! But everytime the price tag spoils the whole thing. Ugly price tag.

Oh well, next: my bed

Almost 2k!!!

AHHH!! My heart shatters everytime I think of it. That bed was just so right for me. For my princessy theme, I mean. It's just so right. I can't describe how it looks like, coz' it's pretty simple, like your average bed, BUT, the design of the bed was just so special, I dunno how to describe it in words. You have to see it to know. AHHH!!!

I better stop here now. Just in case you're itching inside your heart too.

This is just the first day of furniture hunting. And we're already over our budget.
Oh gosh.


Sigh, I really regret going out today to look at furniture.
Coz' everytime I like a particular piece of furniture, it would be freaking expensive.
Over our budget.
I'd rather stay at home and play Sims 2, where I can use cheat code to buy all those expensive furniture in the virtual game, and decorate my virtual home to make it look like a million dollars.
Sigh, if life was like that, HOW NICE.

I'm totally dreaming.

10:54 PM;

{Tuesday, November 01, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

I did something crazy today.


Haha. I feel so GOOD about it. Darn good, exceptionally good. So tired of being goody-two-shoes all the time, I want to do something against my parents and not let them know about it.
Hush hush...
I actually went to Orchard and Bugis with my darling Xiao Qian and Amelin, even though my mom did not allow me to go until so far away. Omg, you know what she said when I told her I was going to Bugis?

"Wah, later go there get molested how?? Bugis that place quite chaotic one leh..."

I was like, hello mom?? Did you know that your precious daughter have been to Bugis more than one time without you knowing? And she went home safe, without being stalked and molested by lechers?? Hello?? I don't have any sex appeal, so those men would not waste their time preying on me. Heh.

Well anyway, today was a fun day. We were so kuku to miss the Bugis stop, so we ended up at Orchard. Oh well, Orchard was nice too. Wow, I salivated when we walked the whole Winstra Atria shopping mall. So many nice clothes and accessories! The whole time I was itching to buy something, nevermind, I always do that when I go out to shop, I will feel weird when I go home empty-handed. My dars were exchanging glances, I know, in their mind, they should be scolding me silently for being such a spendthrift. Oh well, I went out with $22 and got home with $4. Spent the money on the perlini silver's earrings, a small bottle of white glitterish nail polish, montip's cute button, neoprints, lunch and ice-cream. Sigh, I think I will be the winner if there is a competition to see who can spend the most number of money within a few hours.

Oh well, put that money matter aside. Let's move on.
We shopped and walked. That's what we did in Orchard. Shop here look here, see here see there. Take out wallet, buy this buy that. What a familiar routine for some people. Haha.
Went out at 11am, went back to Tampines Mall at 4pm. The familiar routine again, then went to Century Square's new neoprint shop to take neoprints. The neoprints were cool, I can say, the quality of the photos are better than the Pretty in Tokyo shop. Bleh.

I love you all, my dars! XQ and Amelin! Without you all, I will surely be at home rotting to death. Today was such a nice day! A big pity we didn't bring a hundred dollars to spend! Haha.
But still nevertheless, a fun day. Too bad the rest of my dars were too tired to bring their feet out for some shopping. Bleh.

I'm really looking forward to the 2a chalet! I can't wait, coz' this is gonna be the first time I can stay overnight at a chalet! With 2a peeps, with my dars! Yeah, my mom finally gave me some freedom to stay in a chalet!
Woohoo! I'm free!


7:31 PM;

be with myself


cappucino on a rainy day,
snuggles in the warmth of blankets,
hot food in the arms of hunger,
huge umbrella of a stranger,
embraces in the rain,
smiles amidst frowns,
triumphs and singing of the heart

in center


Raindrops like candlewax
Drowning in a
Solid sculpture, you Burning and cold.


Baking skills
Yoga/Electone lessons


*HUGS* TOTAL! *HUGGIES* snuggles & cuddles


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