♥ heart on wings

If only...

If only it was the last moment in time
I would have the excuse
To gaze at you with my life
To connect with your shadowy deep soul
Which lies beneath your hazel eyes

If only it was the last moment in time
I would treasure you with all my life
Spending the limited time with you
Not noticing how the time flies

If only it was the last moment in time
I would muster up enough courage
To tell it straight into your eyes
That I would not be able to breathe without you
And that you are the oxygen in my life

If only it was the last moment in time
I would hold you close to my heart
Not letting you go
For I am afraid
That when the time comes
I would not be able to have you by my side.

Okayz...crappy poem I've invented because of exam stress..teeheee!


Okayz...enough crapping


gotta study...



wish me luck!


`x0x0``
muacks**

P.S. I have been mugging for 24 hrs straight, so don't complain about my crappy poem!!

7:31 PM;

kaleidoscope '05

Ravishing babes and beaus
Lined the placed with beautiful hues
Like a kaleidoscope of a rainbow
Blood ceased to flow
When the windows to my soul
Opened it to you
Tears of joy got the better of me
When I found you in anxiety
Over all the heads and rows,
Excited shrieks and wails
Admist the misty haze
I thought I saw you gaze
Was it my imagination,
Or a case of realization?
For this I do not know
When the light seemed to go.

Kaleidoscope '05 was a total rocker! It was a beautiful night and I think everyone did not regret going to the concert. Drama and Dance performed very well last night and we enjoyed ourselves and relieved our stress by shouting and screaming like crazy people. Oh well...it was a memorable night for me...anyways, I better stop here now. Gotta revise for common test.

`x0x0``
muacks**


P.S. I lurve my darling friends...ya all rock!

5:54 PM;

Dear Diar2,

Yeah I know. You miss me as I didn't post for the last few days. Guess why? Because I'm busy with work and revision and I haven't had time to bang on my keyboard till now. I'm feeling very, very exhausted today. Just came home from school. What time is it now? Almost nine. I stayed at school for 4 freaking hours to do my DNT. First day. Quite happy as it was almost successful, yay! I can then finish it earlier to do my final revision for the end of year exams...hmm...I was thinking of which class to go to next year... and I think I wanna go to 3B...but I dunno whether I can enter that class or not...as my science sucks big time! :) haha...but I wanna go to the class where all my friends are all there...they are my darling friends what...okayz, enough crapping.

Crappy poem for today

Stars are twinkling bright at night
It seemed so familiar to me
The shining tapestry
My love for you glimmers like the stars
Except it will be the brightest of the bright

Musical notes wavering through the skies
A silhouette of a piano sits nearby
The undying notes of the music
Will revolve around you
As long as I live my life

As I sit alone by the boundless skies
My only shadow that accompanies me
Wishing that you will stand by me
Like the shadow
That will never leave

Gazing upon the stars
Once upon a time I prayed
Wishing that you will be the other part of me
Living the rest of our lives together
Till eternity

I guess I'll just leave it to fate
But if it wasn't meant to be you
I'll just wait

`x0x0``
muacks**

8:51 PM;

Tired and sick of everything
Yawnz...you won't want to read this...
WARNING: This post is boring and lame, and you won't want to read a spoilt brat's view over various things that has happened in her fked-up life.










Whatever. Today was disastrous. To top it off the disastrous mountain on my head, my beloved maths teacher has decided to change the whole class's seating arrangement. I bet he doesn't even know what day is today. Second thing topping up the mountain would be my crazy fked-up tests results. I'm like mugging like crazy, and still I get this kind of results? Am I really retarded or what? Third thing topping up the mountain is my crazy love affection for someone who doesn't know I exist. Or doesn't even care. WHATEVER! I'm thinking more of my stupid results than this shit. Oh gosh. I think I sound like Princess Mia in the Princess Diaries Book thingy. I'm so much like her. Except for the tiara part and the ruling a whole country part too. To finish off this disgusting, horrible and upsetting post, I conclude it by shouting to the whole world,
"WHAT THE HELL???"
My life is in a mess.

`x0x0``
muacks **

P.S. If you are really pissed off after reading this entry, serves you right. Did you even read the warning as stated above before continuing to scroll down? :P

9:02 PM;

National Day 40th anniversary
Wow, time has indeed passed like a speed of light. It is already Singapore's 40th Bday Celebration (it also means countdown to common test :(( and countdown to my bday ^-^) I'm looking forward to evening where I can see all the colourful fireworks splattering across the tapestry of stars today. I just can't wait. :) This is going to be the 2nd time where I can gaze at the fireworks LIVE! at the field just outside my house. The first time was the National Day Parade Rehearsal which took place about 4 years ago... I wish Singapore a very happy Birthday! May Singapore be standing proud and tall, even on the world map! *hugs and kisses* I'm gonna wear a red shirt and white bottom when I go out today! Whee...no school today, by the way...

Bitchy Bitchy
Ha, the title has said it all. Gonna pent out all my angers onto this bloggie (poor bloggie) but I'm not planning to spoil my National Day celebration mood. Even my friends agreed that some people have changed their personalities. (which is a sad case and a pathetic thing to do) Somehow I feel sorry for them rather than being angry at them, for they have ruined their own reputation by acting like bitches and all. For instance, acting real cute in front of boys and behaving in a flirty manner. Get a life, girl. Acting cute in front of boys does not make you any cuter, nor behaving like a flirt makes you any more attractive. Do think that you would stoop so low to do this to attract boys' attention. I had thought that you were a really nice girl to be with and a really nice person to be friends with. So I was wrong. You're indeed a wolf in a sheep's clothing. I was thinking to myself, "Who the hell changed the person inside you?" Or is it really you? I'd confess that you're much more cleverer than me, but acting like that in front of boys doesn't make you any cleverer. If you continue to do this, people would have an impression that you are really desperate, trying hard to seduce people. LOL. And this type of people are usually hated by students, and they might even label you as a slut or a whore. I have seen these situations in other schools in the US. However, I really don't wanna you to end up in that situation. You shall be sorry if you continue with your bitchy attitude. Speaking of your bitchy attitude, do think that you even attempt to shout at us to keep our volumes down when we didn't even produce as much noise as you did. You screamed and wailed in class. But why? To attract attention, of course. It is rather disgusting to even think of it. I was really pissed off when you did that after school. It's really annoying. Yeah, you succeeded in attracting attention from the boys. But the girls? Nada. Instead, you carved out a really bitchy side of you. Yes, you're popular. With the boys. But why? Because of your attitude. Boys usually like girls acting cute and all. But not girls. Girls just think that you are trying so hard to act like a Queen Bee and you give us an impression of a plain bimbo. In conclusion, girl, I really do pity you when you are ruining your own reputation like nobody's business. I suggest you stop this bitchiness and resume to your goody-two-shoes attitude. You will be so much nicer. By the way, I've heard that you treat friends like specks of dust waiting to be flecked away by that hand of yours. And I assume it's quite true. Because you backstab and hurt your close friends like nobody's business. That's really enough. You acting bitchy and stuff is already alarming, but what with the backstabbing, hurting close friends and stuff too? It's already too much. I suggest you think it over before everything in your world becomes a chaos and no one wants to be your friend anymore. Maybe not even near you, for I believe that close friends are very precious and you really don't wanna hurt them. Think about what you and your friends went through thick and thin together.

Bitchy guy
Girls can be bitchy. So can be guys. Oh crap. I also pity this guy as I have known him for a very long time...he has changed too. From my primary school view of him, he was a very funny and nice chap to be with. From my secondary school view of him, he has become the class clown (sometimes your jokes can be too cold and irritable) and a thick-skinned and proud person. How sad can that be? It's already a hassle to handle someone like you in my class, but you have already influenced some of the guys in our class too. Oh god. Why can't you just let them off? They don't deserve to get the same treatment as you. (Now everyone is like shunning you and your guy friends away) Because of you, they have learnt the bad things and they have picked some of them up from you. Because of you, they are almost like the same replicas of you. It's really bad when people dislike them for they have been influenced by you. So it's you that should suffer for the blame, and nobody else. Everyone should hate you only instead. Also, he has carved out a name for himself. Flirt. Speaking of him being flirtatious, I don't think that he even has a right to flirt with girls. I mean, c'mon. It's purely disgusting to hear of a guy constantly flirting with girls, when he himself doesn't even have the looks. I'm not saying that he is ugly (but I'm not saying he is hansome either :P), but looking from his demeanour, he doesn't deserve to flirt with girls. And still, he flirts with girls and treats them like everyday clothes. Like this girl, like another girl the next day. I dislike this kinda people and feel that they should taste the feeling of being dumped. Who do you think you are? Flirt with girls like nobody existed and still claim them as your girlfriend and the next day fool around with another girl and do the same thing all over again? Do you think that the girl will like it? Do you even care about how she will feel? You still had the cheek to judge about how girls look. Lol, they don't even look as bad as you do, so why complain about how ugly they are and stuff like that? It's as if you're the most handsome guy in school. Okay. However, he is clever and gets really good results. That's good for him, but he criticizes people who get lower results than him (including me) and boasts about his academic grades and flaunting his perfect scores into people's faces. He deserves to be slapped by other people. He hurts other people's feelings by critisizing them. Badly. For example,
"Aiyah, Cai Ling. You don't need to study so hard for history test lah. Study so hard for what? Still will get so bad results..."
What the hell. Is it your problem if I study for my history test? Does it even concern you? And what about the part about getting bad results even when I study for it? Is it really true that I get so bad results? Do not degrade me, for I am not one who tolerates people who ruin my reputation and spoil my mood totally. I despise them, literally. I bet that if you tell that to other people too, they will feel so bloody hurt. You wanna know how I felt when you said that? I felt anger burning up my heart and I felt the need to destroy you. Destroy this proud and arrogant human being. Yet I felt sad and downgraded. Because of YOU, you ruined my whole day. How I wished your academic results would slide off a drain for your very own good. (By the way, your English is really powerful, ain't it) *sneer*

Okayz. I gotta stop here now. Don't wanna this to affect my current mood.

Happy Bday Singapore! MUACKS!

`x0x0``
muacks**

5:21 PM;

National Day Celebration
Today is the National Day celebration day, so it's only a less-than-half-day school day! Yeehaa! Was so glad that our Principal has made it a special and cozy day for us...loved the concert very much, got to sing all the National Day songs! I like the song "Uniquely You", especially the high part! *glass shatter* Haha...I can reach the note ya know! XD Couldn't believe that school ended at 10 am...it's still so early in the morning...yawn...I thought that it's gonna be a boring day anticipating myself to go home early too, but NO! Today's gonna be a fun day for me! *stressed-up gal*

Bugis craziness
So school ended...what did we do? My dars and I walked around TM to window-shop, also looking for a perfect gift for...*drumroll*...
My dar, Amelin! Muacks! Ya like the gift or not? (of course, you chose it what!) I didn't know that choosing prezzies for friends could be a hard and tedious thing to do. Amelin was very indecisive and couldn't make up her mind whether which present to choose! Finally, she made
her decision. It was a boy boy and girl girl keychain, which was cute and nice. :)) It was still early when she chose her present (finally!)...it was about 12pm and Daphne, another one of my dars, decided to go with her to BUGIS. Oh crap. It was the first time I travelled so far with my dars, ya know? By the way, my mum doesn't know about this! I bet you a million bucks she'll wallop my butt if she knows about it! LOL.
Bugis, here we come! Um, I didn't remember exactly where we were going (coz' I was like following my dars like a blind mouse) as my sense of direction is really poor. Anyway, I just know that we had to walk pass many crowds and bling bling lights. And salivate on yummy foods and babylicious clothes and accessories. I was wondering whether we attracted any attention, as we were wearing our class tees. (which was hot pink in colour?) I think we did. Many of the "high" school students were gaping at us. Their eyeballs were like so huge and they were like, "They wear PINK?" I mean, c'mon, what's so bad about pink? Even the guys in our class opted that colour. Because pink is HOT. And I don't care about what the rest think of us. I should ask them to be more flexible and think wisely. :))

Early Bday Celebration for Amelin
So we were walking around Bugis like blind mice. We wriggled our way to Tampines back again...whew...it's less crowded over here, and it felt more like home... By the time we reached our hometown, it was already getting late. About 2+ in the afternoon. Amelin reminded me that we haven't taken our neoprints yet. For the sake of her early bday celebration, we entered the fully-packed pinky place and waited for an HOUR before our turn (FINALLY). We're pissed off with some bitchy people, by the way. They jumped queue. How can they stoop so low as to jump queue and act like nothing has happened? Anyway, back to the subject. I didn't know how to handle neoprint machines, neither did Amelin. So we did our trial and error. (Teehee, the results were satisfactory!) All I could remember when we were inside the neoprint machine were the flashing camera and the decorative stuffs. (and the frantic moments for poses) 5 mins later, we stepped out.
Whoa, our neoprints were...
Cool! (except for the messy hairdos and weird smiles) My favourite neoprint was the princessy look. We had our tiaras! :D
Despite our naiveness to handling neoprint machines, the results were satisfactory...(wassup with my smile?) Lol...Anyway, the fun part about taking neoprints was the process, not the end results, so I didn't care less when I didn't smile that much. (Guess I was figuring around the poses and all...well, whatever.)

Moral of the day: Do not ever take neoprints in the afternoon. You'll waste an hour. XP

P.S. Amelin, I really do envy you. You look good in the neoprints; plus you get dozens of prezzies from your fellow mates... *green monster*

P.S.S. Ke Hua is still rattling off on the love topic...-_-;;;

P.S.S.S. Today has been a fun day! Funnlicious! :D

`x0x0``
muacks**

5:13 PM;

Dear Diar2,

Suddenly I was thinking of changing the blog's url and the blogskin when I turn 14 on Sep 9...

Because it will mean a whole new beginning for me! When I turn 14, of course.

Hmm...be prepared to see a new change in me, my dars!

`x0x0``
muacks**

P.S. However, I will miss the old 13-year-old me...boo hoo hoo...

Will the change be good or bad?

Find out for yourself!

5:16 PM;

be with myself

Affirmation

cappucino on a rainy day,
snuggles in the warmth of blankets,
hot food in the arms of hunger,
huge umbrella of a stranger,
embraces in the rain,
smiles amidst frowns,
sincerity..
triumphs and singing of the heart

clarity

Raindrops like candlewax
Drowning in a
Solid sculpture, you Burning and cold.

peace

Independence
Health
Baking skills
Yoga/Electone lessons
Love
Faith
Happiness

serenity.

*HUGS* TOTAL! *HUGGIES* snuggles & cuddles

.::.
Cousin ♥
amelin =)
fiona =)
ke*hua =)
edwin =)
sim*yee =)
yi*chen =)
anna =)
♥ trains

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