heart on wings

{Friday, July 29, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

Today was a fun day. No school. Full-time bazaar day. Gosh, I think I spent $10 today on the stalls opened all around the school. But I don't give a damn, coz' all the money is gonna be sent to charity! Didn't regret a single tatty bit. Okayz, the first stall that I patronized today was the henna stall. With Xiao Qian, (who doesn't wanna be one of my dars). Ahem, the gal who did the painting onto my hand was you know, very amateurish. It was horrid when the henna painting was done. All my friends in 2A kept quiet about the outcome of my hand. Nevertheless, they didn't know what was going to happen next. Approximately half an hour later, the henna dried up and I washed my hand. Tada! The orangy painting on my left hand was quite nice, compared to the undried looking one.

Haha...after that, me, Xiao Qian and Ke Hua went to a stall in the canteen selling some pretty looking keychains. Bought 2 and a free one was given. Xiao Qian and I shared the price and she got one, and I got 2. The funny part was that I bought two keychains, with the alphabets on it, and it symbolizes something. Can't reveal it here, coz' it will be so obvious. They got what I meant and they kept on teasing me about it. Lol, anyway, the two keychains are so lovely together.

Last stall we patronized was um, oh yeah, the fishy game. Lol, I caught 2 fishies only and they started again to tease me about it.

"Haha, these two fishies are like a pair, always together, moving as one. They are bound to be a nice pair together. Ahem, it's like you and him together..."

Lol, see how they teased me to that kinda extent? Anyway, the day wouldn't be fun if they were not funny and nice, right? For your information, the two fishies have survived the whole day in a plastic bag. They didn't die, so strong-willed. I bet they have stayed in the plastic bag for like 4 hours...and they still survived? What a miracle...now I have transferred them to a tank together with the rest of my father's goldfishies. They are so cute together...:)


8:42 PM;

{Thursday, July 28, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

I can't really explain my feelings now. It's a mixture of sadness and happiness, so what should i start with first? Okayz, the sad part first.

Today was a blur. We sort of had a tiff with 2B over the geography test and all. Everyone was pissed when 2B played loud music on Tuesday when we were having our geography test. I didn't complete my geography test. Yayness. You see, they were having music lessons at the same time as we are taking our test. We shouted at them to soften down, but instead, they went louder. Everyone in class complained when the geography test was over. By the way, the time given to complete the test was shortened. On Wednesday afternoon, I logged in to msn. Suzie invited everyone to a conversation and he suggested to blast music during 2B's geography test. I disagreed; coz' it ain't a nice idea to do that. But I think I was the only few who protested against his idea. The next day, which is today, he carried a big big big vcd player to school. On the last period, 2B was having their geography test. So were we, having our music lessons. Our music teacher taught us to sing the National Day songs, Uniquely You and Reach for the Skies. I'm really addicted to the song, Uniquely You. It's really romantic and touching. I really wanted to dedicate the song to him. Okay, back to the topic. And so we were sort of enjoying our music lesson. Everyone started to sing real loud deliberately to create noise pollution for the next door class. Mrs Chan was not too keen on us doing that. But we continued anyway. I think that sort of bonded the class together...I think...

The real trouble brewed when school ended. 2B was really pissed off with us. They were shooting deadly glances at us wherever we went. But I didn't really care. Coz' it's sort of tit for tat, ain't it? Well, I was also really confused. I didn't want to end my friendship with my 2B friends, as we're normally close to each other. 2A and 2B. Good buddies. Sigh...basically, I think the whole thing was our fault and partly theirs too. We're at fault as what we did was crude and selfish and inconsiderate. They're at fault because they started the trouble first. Sort of. Anyway, it's over. I think I should move on to the happy topic.

Well...as I told you over the last few weeks, I think I've fallen in love with someone...


I've gotten over that jerk.

And it took me 2 years. Gosh, a pretty long time to recover...anyway, I've learnt something in life. There are really more fishes in the sea! (nicer ones too) :D

I'm in lurve.....lol

But I really hope that that someone would know, and that he would return the love too.
The nicest thing on earth is to love and be loved, so who doesn't want their loves to be returned to them? I'm really grateful that I'm able to see him every day, and look into his deep hazy eyes...
But I humbly wish that he feels something else for me....
I wish...I wish...
that he also thinks of me every single day...

Maybe it would work out this time...

Let's see.


9:37 PM;

{Wednesday, July 27, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

I don't like the speech day rehearsal. AT ALL. Oh man, what are we to their eyes?? Are we a piece of smelly poo which ought to be trampled upon?? C'mon, I can tell it the minute the Principal and everybody was treating us, the lowly Guitar Ensemble...

Stepping up onto the stage, we sat down. Everything was going smoothly. Except that we were soft? Nevermind that, coz' the hall was big and all. Without our conductor too. Okay, so we played. First time we played, it was bloody soft. Can't hear anything at all. I can really see the boos played in front of our faces. It was bloody embarrassing. The people in the hall were really.
I mean, they didn't even pay attention to us. Okay, we are invisible. After playing, we sat down. Coz' we wanna play again. To prove that we are not soft.

But, in the end, we played last. After waiting for like a bloody long time. Waited for the choir and band and all the better ccas as they played their lives away. We were sitting on the stage like total retards. What the hell? WHAT THE HELL? Are we really invisible? I can tell by the looks on our teachers' faces that they were damn embarrassed. I asked myself, " Are we normally soft?" Coz' it's the same amount of sound produced during the SYF too.

When we finished our songs, everyone was gone. I mean, they don't even care. The band members, choir members, everyone left. Well, except for the VP and P. Okay, they let them play first. What the hell are they trying to convey to us? That we are not worth playing or something? That we suck to the core? If that's it, then we don't deserve the silver that we got in the SYF.

Yeah right. Band and choir rocks. We suck.

Is that it??

(Yes, definitely, coz' they often look down on us. The lowly performing art cca.)

(Oh no...not performing arts. Not considered as one. CCA.)

9:00 PM;

{Wednesday, July 20, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

I'm hopelessly in lurve with your current blogskin. Maybe it's because it can relate fully to my current feelings and it's also very pretty and beautiful...how I wished I can have such a beautiful skin like you...-_-;;; And also because of the ravishing colours and tones of the blogskin, I'm really hopelessly in lurve with it...and also the soothing, melancholy music...familiar, anyone?

I'm blogging again...but it seems like no one stops by at my blog to have a look at my inner feelings. Oh well. Maybe it's because it's boring and no one appreciates my writing...sigh...I have recently asked a few of my friends to comment about my blog and it seems to me that the reply is the same...

"Your blog is boring because it's full of lovey-dovey stuff and romantic poems..."

What's wrong with that, may I ask? Sigh, no one just appreciates that stuff...instead, they prefer to appreciate bitchy blogs rather than mine. Oh, c'mon. Those bitchy blogs are just blogs created by bored and flirty kinda girls. Those blog contents are very nasty and stupid, and they cause more online people to actually hate them when they don't even know those bitchy people. They are just so lame. -_- Get a life, "babe". Unless you wanna be hated by the whole world, then go ahead and create a bitchy blog. How "interesting".

Anyway, I don't care less if anyone reads my blog or not coz' my blog is for me, I and myself to appreciate only. Seriously.

Therefore, I'm very much in lurve with my own blog. LOL. XD

Hmm...wanna know more about school stuff? Okayz, I admit. These few weeks are real boring. Nothing great happened. Just the normal procedure...however, I hope that our class bonding will improve more as I hope we can work together like a big group during LTC camp '05. So that we can enjoy our class activities and not regret a single bit of it... Another reason could be that we can know more about each other....get what I mean? *hint hint* It's boring talking to the same people in class, ya know... Moreover, we are a class. The same class. So we should talk to everyone more often. Argh, but I know it's not gonna work for some of us...I mean, c'mon, it's already the 2nd half of the year and my class is still like that? Individualistic, a cluster of cliques? What kinda class is that? Never in my life have I encountered such a class. Last year, my class was not like that. 1E'04 was a total rocker turn-on! Everyone talk to everybody and there were no cliques and stuff like that. Everything was nice and going smoothly!

Sigh. So much so for being in the top class. There's always a disadvantage and an advantage to everything.

Okayz. I gotta stop here now. Gotta revise my work and all.
`Au revoir!

muacks **

7:22 PM;

{Monday, July 18, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

I'm so overwhelmed today. Coz' today is the big day.
Our class has gotten our t shirts. Finally! The colour combination looks a bit weird when you see it for the first time, but when you gaze at it for a much longer time, it will not look weird anymore. In fact, it will look fabulous! Ooh lah lah! For your information, the colour of the t shirt is pink. I repeat, it's pink. But the pink is not baby pink. It's shocking pink. That's why it looks weird when you see it for the first time. Kinda hurts your eyes a bit, that's how bright it is. But I'm lovin' it. Coz' we are unique. And you know what? I don't care how others think of our class t shirts, you may think that it's gay and ugly but I think it rocks and it's hot! Pink is hott!
Are you?

muacks **

8:06 PM;

{Sunday, July 17, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

Lol. I have changed your skin, how do you feel in it? (for readers out there, do not think i'm crazy or whatsoever coz' Diar2 is the name of my bloggie! ^^;;;)
Okayz, so that was lame...
But interesting...haha...okayz...to everyone out there who's forever reading this blog, i hope that you all would comment on the new skin that I have just downloaded from the blogskins webbie...i hope that your comments are going to be positive...coz' I changed the blogskin as I thought it was boring and something was just not right...I searched and searched through the webbie and finally, fate brought me to this nice and gorgeous blogskin! I totally fell in love with it! The contents of the blogskin is a bit plain, but I'll be adding things in the future!
Not right now, as I have tons of things to accomplish and tomorrow's gonna be monday blues for me! Till then!

muacks **

9:25 PM;

{Friday, July 15, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

Lol. 3 weeks has passed since the first day of school. Great.
And nothing much has happened.
Waiting in vain for the class t shirt...I hope that the colour turns out right! Baby pink, please!
Lol. Don't ask me why the colour's that. Ask the guys. They agreed. Lol. Weird, huh?
Guys are always weird. They said that pink is man. And that pink is cute. Right. Anyway, I'm quite glad that they agreed on pink. Coz' pink is my life. I'm lovin' the way it is.
Oh goodness. 7 months has passed, and yet, no class bonding?
Yeah, I'm not kidding you.
Sigh, and no one's doing anything about it.

`hhopeless ♥ rromantic``

9:36 PM;

{Wednesday, July 06, 2005}

How I Wished

Chorus: How I wished, how I wished
That you were here with me
That would be, that would be
A perfect final fantasy
Thinking of, thinking of
Holding you 'till eternity
I know I'm falling in too deep
It's your love that pushes far through

Composed by: Cassie a.k.a. Cai Ling

Hmm...watcha think of it? First song btw...

7:27 PM;

be with myself


cappucino on a rainy day,
snuggles in the warmth of blankets,
hot food in the arms of hunger,
huge umbrella of a stranger,
embraces in the rain,
smiles amidst frowns,
triumphs and singing of the heart

in center


Raindrops like candlewax
Drowning in a
Solid sculpture, you Burning and cold.


Baking skills
Yoga/Electone lessons


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