heart on wings

{Monday, May 30, 2005}

Dear Diar2,
Damn. Today was so fun! After the LTC meeting with Zeus members were over, me, Xiao Ling and Ting went to Century Square (Discovery Studios) to check out whether the song "Everytime" has come out. Unfortunately, it hadn't come out. However, since we're already there, we decided to check it out. This was the 2nd time I entered the studio so it wasn't that bad. Lol, guess what the hell I sang for the first time. Eternal Flame. Hah. It was .... horrible. So I switched to "I turn to you" by Christina Aguilera. Hmm...not bad after I listened to my voice. After that, switched to "If we hold on together" by whoever it was...I chose it coz' my instructor taught us how to play that song on guitar before...Ting was impressed, therefore we both sang "Everytime" by S.H.E (chinese version)...quite cool actually, but Ting kept saying that her voice sucked. Like, um...it's ok, but need to polish a bit. Xiao Ling, she didn't want to sing, so instead she sat at a corner and listened to all our "marvellous" voices. I'd admit it's not that bad if we polish our voice well. Overall was a nice day. A very nice one. Got to know some new friends from LTC, like Zehui and all. Humorous guy, I might add. Haha.

5:15 PM;

{Sunday, May 29, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

Exams are over. Holidays are in. Yeah, right.
As if.
As usual, the teachers in school bombarded us with tons of homework.
As usual, the days meant for us to spend during the holidays are overtaken by CCas and camps.
As usual, I'm still depressed over the exam results thingy.
As usual, I will flare up if people say that their marks are too low.
As usual, I am still heartbroken.
As usual.

6:07 PM;

{Thursday, May 26, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

Wassup with my life?
Why is everything just not right?
Wassup with my days?
That's been gotten thrown away?
Yeah, it's him I'm blaming for
Whom I'll hate forever more
It was silly of me
To commit such a grave mistake
That not even an evil soul could take
Wassup with my brain?
Why is it that it's been so strained?
It's the main cause of my dejection
A real case of realization
Of my dumbnation
I hate the way I'm living it
I hate the way I'm losing it
Can't take this anymore
Part of me

Wanna give up forever more
Part of me
Wanna fight my way through forever more
Which path should I take?
In order not to make mistakes again?

5:58 PM;

{Tuesday, May 24, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

People often ask me
People often tell me
That it seemed impossible
To be with that person who is unpredictable
However, I did not took it to heart
And even belted out my anger to them
Now, I finally realized that it was dumb of me
To pine for someone so wholeheartedly
In the end
What I got
Was bittersweet feelings.
Don't wanna make that mistake again.
Don't wanna see him again. Ever again.

8:29 PM;

{Monday, May 23, 2005}

Dear Diar2,

Broken dreams, shattered thoughts
Which is something that I've fought
Now is left of me
Nothing but a strange feeling
Something I've never felt nor fought
What is it? Is it hatred or envyness?
Or is it love or happiness?
But I shall not know
Until my heart is told...

5:39 PM;

{Friday, May 20, 2005}

Forbidden Love

Struggling to find my own soul
There's a truth that has to be told
Broken words, empty promises
Broken dreams, empty weepses
Torn, shattered
Folorn, dejected
A dangerous dart
Pierced right through my heart
I knew
I feel
It was a mistake
Which I couldn't forsake
A forbidden love
Which came from the skies above

Composed by: Cai Ling a.k.a. Cassie

Hehehe...dark poem...as always, comments are free to be typed on the taggie board...as well as rates...

5:42 PM;

cassie is 3 years old
cassie is a xaran xealot
cassie is married
cassie is dixiepeephole
cassie is one
cassie is cool
cassie is just cassie and we love her to pieces
cassie is so desperate to earn money that she evened stripped
cassie is a nickname that my friends came up with from my initials
cassie is smart even though she has a mind like a little kid
cassie is in awe of him
cassie is trying to stay straight and live with the torments of her past
cassie is intoxicated by her newfound strength
cassie is not the one at fault here
cassie is in need of a loving home
cassie is an outstanding individual
cassie is very sweet
cassie is miiinnneeee

Wow...can't believe googlism...hmm...quite true though...

4:04 PM;

{Thursday, May 19, 2005}

A gunshot sounds off in the air
Marks the sign of doom and despair
Guns and roses cannot be compared
Guns to kill, roses for pairs
What he gave, nothing to spare
What she got, is nothing but death

Nice poem by Jon! Very mushy, yet dark...it's so surreal and unique... acknowledgements to Jon...^^

9:18 PM;

Never Say Goodbye

Never been in love
Cause a girl like me
Never had someone to care for
Never thought there could be
Someone special for me
But now I'm all in love
Cause a girl like me waited patiently
For someone
Someone to care for me
And there will never be

No more lonely
No more just me
I've been there before
Ain't going no more
And now that you're here
I never wanna say goodbye love
Never want to be without you
No more crying
No denying
I'm in love with you
And now that you're here
I never want to say goodbye love

Now it's time for me
To find out what a first time love could mean
A little scared, but it's cool
Cause it's worth it
Now I finally felt love
And I know that it gots to be for real (so real)
It's the way that I feel
So come share my world with me
So there will never be

No more lonely
No more just me
I've been there before
Ain't going no more
And now that you're here

I never wanna say goodbye love
Never want to be without you
No more crying
No denying

I'm in love with you
And now that you're here
I never want to say goodbye love

So I'm standing here
Arms open wide
Ready to give my heart
I'm sure this time
Love's gonna last for life
Baby, I know things change
And that life needs some rain
But the clouds are gonna clear
And the sun is gonna shine again
Shine on our love baby
So let's make this last forever


7:13 PM;

{Wednesday, May 18, 2005}

Dear Diar2,
Me got back my mid year results...guess what? well, it was downright outrageous...some of them are quite ok, whereas some of them are really really b a d . Not gonna tell you which. Hmm...shivering and cowering in fright, hoping that tomorrow will not ever come becoz' of english...


7:24 PM;

{Monday, May 02, 2005}


"Set me free
From all the pain"
But all I did was wait in vain
Separated with a smile
You left me heartless
I went the extra mile
To pick up the broken pieces
Relishing the truth
I sank into depression
You took my heart and lifted it high
Gone was you
Gone was I
But I still miss you
Neither did I
Reminiscing the days I spent with you
Regretting the days I spent with you
It was grand
When I went
Completely devoid of emotion
Growing fear of rejection
A final look at the brokened
And I left my past behind
Completely senseless

Composed by: Cai Ling a.k.a. Cassie

This poem was inspired by the layout of my blogskin and also about my shattered first love...(U)
Feel free to leave some comments at the taggie corner...I won't bite ya...

6:44 PM;

be with myself


cappucino on a rainy day,
snuggles in the warmth of blankets,
hot food in the arms of hunger,
huge umbrella of a stranger,
embraces in the rain,
smiles amidst frowns,
triumphs and singing of the heart

in center


Raindrops like candlewax
Drowning in a
Solid sculpture, you Burning and cold.


Baking skills
Yoga/Electone lessons


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